You attack me just another time,
Your words and fists pull a blanket of darkness
Over my heart,
I disappointed you again.
And you told me what a big mistake I was,
How you wish that I was never born.
I know that I am not who you want me to be,
That I will never achieve your goals
You set for me long ago.
Let me live another day,
Breathe another breath
While being the one thing
That I am learning to be,
Myself.
Tonight was just another night that I brought
Disappointment to your door,
Just another thing to make me regret
The fact that I am still breathing,
I am sorry, but sometimes,
Somewhere within me
I just want to live-
And be filled with light
And not darkness,
Yet others-
I just want my heart
To stop its incessant beating.
You tell me
How I am capable
Of nothing,
How my goals and dreams
Can never be achieved
By the likes of me.
So, I let my dreams die,
I let my dreams flutter away in the wind,
My dreams now
Have become lost in the abyss,
And I want them back.
I no longer dream at night,
Instead my demons of emotions
Haunt my thoughts
As sleep chooses to evade me.
Sleep will not invade me
When I cannot dream
Like others do
Or when I cower and hide
From the mornings light.
