Will Love Ever Come?

Chapter 10

MONDAY EVENING AND ESCHEWAL sits at his desk, bored as hell, waiting for the time to hit six. His thoughts travel back to the weekend. He sees himself licking Camille's vagina.

He hates The Dog in him. He clenches his teeth and feels like spitting as the smell of her vagina comes to his memory. When the scent first hit him, he wanted to scream, "Err, it stinks." but could not bring himself to embarrass her, so he held his breath, closed his eyes, and licked.

After the ordeal, he swore he would never do oral sex again, and what made it worse was that he only did it thinking he had to, not realizing she would have given him sex with or without oral.

He rubs his chin and readjusts himself in the chair. He opens and closes a few programs on his screen to make it seem like he is working and then relaxes as his manager leaves the office for the day.

He sucks his teeth. He knows The Dog will take over his life if he does not do something or think of something to control The Dog. He shakes his head; he wishes some miracle could happen to make him become a creator of values right now.

He questions himself, 'Why? How?' His thoughts now travel back to a section in the black book. It is a section on romantic love.

One of life's greatest achievements is finding true romantic love, then committing oneself to a monogamous relationship.

For a moment, his mind goes blank, and then it hits him. He thinks, 'I haven't become a creator of values because I haven't found romantic love and began a monogamous relationship.'

He is sure this is why. He did everything else the black book instructed, except this. He tells himself, 'Yep, I'm gonna begin my search for romantic love.'

His faith in the black book restores. The Dog retreats to its cage. He feels at ease, and before deciding where to begin his search, Deuce's name flashes up on his phone.

Eschewal flips into his player dialogue and answers, "Yeah, what's going on, bruv?"

"Nothing, man, wha gwan?"

"I'm at work innit, soon finish in about ten minutes. Oi, you listening? What happened with that ting on Friday?"

"Nothing, man. She's an idiot, everything criss, man. She try question me, but she never know nothing."

A smile reaches Eschewal's face. He had been agonizing all weekend over it; he now promises himself he will never do anything like that again.

"Anyway, listen," begins Deuce, "what you doing on the weekend?"

"Nothing. Why?"

"Boy, there's something in the park innit, ber girls are gonna be there, bruv."

Another smile hits Eschewal's face. He feels this could be a perfect place to find romantic love. "Yeah, man, I'm down. Just call me at the weekend, innit."