Still Dunno

Chapter 72 - Finding Away Out - Part Two

Wesley's POV

"All you have to do is sit there and listen. You can't ask questions or react. Just let Janis talk."

"Whatever," Riker mumbled.

"Do this for Janis, Riker," I pleaded.

Riker rolled his eyes but didn't say anything. We went into Janis's room.

"Wow, there's a lot of people here," she exclaimed.

"You got this," I said, squeezing her hand.

Janis nodded.

"Okay, I'm supposed to tell you everything that happened, but I must start before the attack. Dad was on tour about a week before, and Mom was stressed. She thought Riker was having an affair, and she was pissed when she found out he wasn't coming straight home. I was pissed a few days later when she decided to fly to Las Vegas to be with her husband, who she hadn't seen in three months. So, on the night of our show, I felt on top of the world because the show was fantastic! Joslyn and I were being obnoxious and loud when we went outside. I immediately noticed the guys but didn't think anything of it until they grabbed us. I was calm until the guy ripped Joslyn's dress, and then I lost it. I started swinging, slapping, scratching, hitting, and kicking. I made contact right between the legs. The guy keeled over, and I went to run, but he grabbed my arm and yanked me back. I thought he ripped my arm out of the socket. He threw me against the wall, my head bounced off the wall, and I saw stars and felt nauseated. He slapped me across the face and started swearing at me. Put his hand around my throat and started to squeeze. I couldn't breathe. He called me a bitch and said I'd pay for that with my life! He pulled out a gun and placed it right against my forehead. I remember how cold the metal was against my forehead. The stars cleared instantly, and he pulled the trigger, and nothing happened. Then I heard Jamey yell, and there was more white pain shooting through my head. I woke up in the hospital. Dad was sitting beside me, and I thought it was a dream.

A couple weeks after the attack, I could see how torn up Mom was, and I let her. I couldn't talk because of the swelling in my throat, and I didn't want to. Maybe Mom would remember this the next time Dad went on tour. When I finally started to talk, it was never directly with her. The therapist suggested I get a dog, and we got Cooper. He was so cute. He'd sit with me and listen to me talk for hours. When mom died, I felt all this guilt for shutting her out because of Riker, and it was easier to be mad at Riker than my dead mother. At least I didn't feel guilty blaming Riker.

Life went on, and I met Wesley. I really liked him, and he got me to reach out to Riker, and I started talking to him again. It was weird, but it felt right. When Wesley and I started dating, we went to Colorado and got into that car accident. Riker told me that if I meant as much to Wesley as he did to me, he'd give me the time I needed, and Wes did.

After Molly's party, someone asked me to buy them a pregnancy test, and I did. Wesley thought it was mine. He convinced me to take it, and I figured, why not? The test would be negative, and he'd be upset, but we'd be okay. When it came back positive, I was shocked! I didn't even think I was pregnant! What kind of mother would I be if I couldn't tell I was pregnant? Wesley was thrilled to death."

Janis smiled at the memory.

"He was so happy that it made me happy, but we agreed not to tell anyone for a little bit.

Watching Molly and spending the evening with her gave me hope that I might do okay in motherhood. Joslyn came home late and drunk. She was obnoxious and saying all these crazy things. She wanted me to spend the night with her so we could talk all night. All I wanted to do was go home and go to sleep. Joslyn got mad! She started saying mean shit to me about my relationship with Wes, how I'd never move with him because I was too busy trying to control everyone else's life. I went upstairs to get Molly because I didn't want her to be there alone with Joslyn.