Loving Sandro Gunner Esquivel

Chapter 37

Napaupo ulit ako. I need to calm myself, I tried controlling my emotions. I composed myself for a few minutes and immediately got up. Dumiretso na ako palabas at nag-abang ng jeep. I was shaking the whole time. Naiiyak na rin ako. I need to call him. Nilabas ko ang cellphone ko at kaagad siyang tinawagan, my hands were shaking as I dial his number, it is ringing but he is not answering it at all! Malapit ng mag alas kwatro pero baka nasa opisina pa siya. 

Nakaabang ako ng jeep at kaagad na sumakay. Pupuntahan ko siya sa penthouse niya. Doon ko siya kakausapin. I tried calling his number over and over again but he is not answering at all, mas lalo akong kinabahan. He is always ready to answer my calls, kahit nasa gitna siya ng trabaho.

Sa sobrang kaba ay halos hindi ko namalayan na nakarating ako sa building niya, kaagad akong bumaba at pumasok sa entrance. The employees smiled at me but I can't even smile at all. Nanginginig ang labi ko. I just need to see him now, dire-diretso akong pumasok sa personal elevator niya.

My hands were shaking as I pressed his floor number. I walked back and forth the elevator and in time, it opened. I was basically running to reach his door. I composed myself and tried pushing the doorbell button, and I was actually shocked that it opened. Pero hindi si Sandro ang nabungaran ko.

I know this man. He was Sandro's cousin, I saw him in the university together with them. He looked at me with no emotion at all. I actually shivered the way he looked at me. We looked at each other until he spooked.

"Gunner, you have a visitor." His voice was void of emotion.

So Sandro is here? Then, why is he not answering my calls? Tumingin ako sa likod niya at nakita ko nga si Sandro na palapit na sa amin. I shivered more upon seeing his emotionless face as well, but he is almost angry. And from that, I knew something had changed.

"L, get going now." He muttered it hardly as he neared us. 

Hindi sumagot ang kaharap kong lalake bagkus ay muli niya akong tiningnan. He then walked out the door. 

I was finally able to see him fully. I was supposed to walk inside when he gestured to me to stop entering his place. I panicked with his gesture, my eyes were getting watery and my lips quivering from his coldness. This is not him at all.

"Don't you dare set your foot again on this floor." That was the coldest tone that I've heard from him. I have never imagined hearing this tone from him, hindi ito ang Sandro na nakilala ko.

Lumapit siya ng tuluyan sa akin at hindi ko mapigilang mapaluha. He looked at me ridiculously. And that is when he showed me an envelope, I just noticed it now that he is holding one. 

"See it yourself." I can feel that he is just controlling his rage right now. 

Umiling ako sa kanya. "Sandro I----" 

"See it your fucking self!" He almost screamed at me. He is greeting his teeth so hard.

I quivered more. Hindi ko na mapigilan ang pag agos ng mga luha ko, but he just looked at me mockingly. This is not what I have imagined us to be. Hindi ito magagawa sa akin ng Sandro na minahal ko. He is not him at all. 

With my trembling hands, I opened it. And I was shocked upon seeing the insides of it. Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko pero mas lalong nanginig ang katawan ko sa nakita. This is not me! I never slept with Jaspher! Walang nangyari sa amin na ganito!

I looked at those picture horrifyingly. Diretso kong iniling ang ulo ko sa mga nakikita. This is impossible!

"Sandro walang nangyari---"

I was stopped when he punched his door frame. It was so hard his knuckles bleed. 

I cried more when I knew that from that moment he wouldn't believe me. Nabitawan ko ang mga litrato sa paanan namin at sinapo na lamang ang mukha ko. My tears are uncontrollable this time. My legs are shaking, and I just want to kneel right now. I shook my head over and over again.