the game

katie

when i get back to the dorm i make my way straight to my bed.

"katie!" i don't turn around, it's ken trying to talk to me again. i clench my fists. why is he this way? why is he always like this? of course i won't let him in! there's no point in letting him in! it was hard enough letting amy in as a friend, letting any of them in as friends and then i got pegged the traitor. the only good thing about our relationship is that i can call him a traitor now instead of him calling me one. he hasn't done it yet, but he will. my fists clench tighter and i feel my nails sliding into my skin.

i'm not letting him in. he's not worth it. he's too much of a loose string. he's too... i don't even have the words to it.

"katie!" there it is again. i spin around ready to chew his head off when i see amy. she stands there blinking at me.

"if looks could kill, you just murdered me in cold blood," she shakes her head.

"sorry i thought you were someone else," i say turning into my bedroom finally.

"somebody else, who?" she won't give up.

"oh," she finally states once i sit down.

"it's ken isn't it, what did he do this time?" she asks as she sits next to me.

i sigh.

"nothing, did you find anything useful in the game," i cut the conversation short. i don't want to think about him right now. i can't.

"well me and this random kid got the monitors working except now i need some password," amy rolls her eyes. "it's only a matter of time till i crack it, im gonna find out what's inside," she smiles mischievously.

"my powers exploded," i sigh in response. she looks at me long and hard.

"then why don't you use lover boy to teach you how to control them? you're both electrodes for goodness sake. and then you don't have to care about him using you, because you're using him back. he'll get over his crush in no time. they always do," amy finishes bitterly. i blink.

"amy? are you in love with someone?" i hadn't even thought about it for her. she seems so driven.

"not enough to talk to someone else about it yet, i'll let you know if i can't get over them," she smiles.

i smile back. we don't have to tell eachother our secrets to be close. the fact that we protect eachothers secrets at all costs is what makes us close and part of that is not asking even if i want to.