"I'm glad you won't need me anymore once you have that stone Luke was talking about?" I smile at Ken. "Not only that but I'm finally in a place where I feel comfortable training alone. I want to blend the fighting skills I studied as a blank with what I know now, and that will take a lot of introspection. If anything I think it's beset we put some distance between..."
Suddenly fingers lace around my elbow holding me there.
"Don't say that," I turn around because I know that is ken's voice, but I've never heard him say anything in that tone. He looks petrified with a tinge of sadness. His eyes look like the ocean in the middle of a hurricane.
"Ken come on. I know you hate me," I laugh. He won't let go of my elbow.
"Don't... don't say that," his eyebrows are creased in pain. I try pulling away but he pulls my body into him.
"I'm not pushing you away once I'm not dying, this means I have a future, doesn't it? A future I want you to be a part of," and then he tilts my chin up so I'm forced to look him in the eye. "Why do you always push me away like this?"
I don't say anything. I know why I push him away. One day he will leave just like everyone else. One day he will stop trying and caring just like everyone else. One day, just like everyone else, he will leave me. I will be alone. There is no other answer to this equation, but it's easier to cut it off now when I'm ahead.
"Give me time, I'll show you I'm not going anywhere," he begs.
It's kind of a tempting thought.
"Please," and there's a note of sincerity. Maybe that's why I say yes, and then I make my way back to my room. My heart is throbbing. I just said yes so he would get off of my back. There's no way he'll actually stick around, no one does. Not mom. Not dad. Not my 7 siblings.
I take a deep breath. This isn't the time to think about my abandonment issues. As the levels have progressed the difficulty has progressed. If i am going to come out on top I can't be thinking about all of the extenuating circumstances. My mom wanted me to stay alive. I know that. It's just hard doing it. Alone.
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General FictionBOOK 2 WARNING: VIOLENCE/DARK THEMES/GORE/DEATH All of us come face to face with death in our lifetimes. Betrayal, lying, and the vulnerability of choosing our dreams over what others want from us. We never fit the plan, and that is what this book i...
