my heart is throbbing in my ears. what the others had talked about rebounds around my skull like a ping pong machine. why would they go to victoria if alasia was suffering? and what was it suffering? last year when the forcefield went out. is this all connected? if so, what does it mean? what could it mean? why would someone tell victoria when they could just as easily go tell the government? why would they go to victoria? and how did they know where she would be?
my brain throbs as i make my way back to base. ken. the look on his face. was he always so cold and callused? from my memory this man was invincible and cold but the ken i just saw was volatile and emotional. what is happening inside that head of his? and then i realize i'm thinking about him. i gulp and rapidly try to change my train of thought.
"so what are you thinking about?" luke is right next to me.
"ken is acting weird right? it's not just me?" i ask loudly.
"grief is a weird thing kally," luke keeps running by my side. i look at him slowly.
"he's never talked about his father before even to me, but i know he cares deep down. deep down he has to know killing people is wrong," luke's face is contorted in a face of pained compassion for ken and my heart thuds uncomfortably in my chest.
"easier said than done, that boy is built to kill," i shake my head thinking about ken. he is so handsome and glittering as ever but my heart doesn't feel the same. there's this sickening feeling like poison every time i get too close to him. every time my skin gets too close to his i hear him say to me over and over again.
"i need her," i've never seen that kind of desperation on anyone's face. the feeling of losing the sense of balance one has, falling into death until that one savior comes. and then my mind shifts to tigris killing me with her powers. her shrill laugh. which brings me finally to my own memories, the dregs of that loathsome night when he said he needed her.
i begged him to die for me instead.
a shiver runs down my spine. why did i think i knew what i wanted from life when all i knew was a boy i liked one sidedly?
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the game
General FictionBOOK 2 WARNING: VIOLENCE/DARK THEMES/GORE/DEATH All of us come face to face with death in our lifetimes. Betrayal, lying, and the vulnerability of choosing our dreams over what others want from us. We never fit the plan, and that is what this book i...
