I fiddle on with my locker hoping to ignore the show Britney and Connor are putting on in the corner. It's not that it effects me, it just reminds me of what I'm not getting.
Day 3, Taylor still hasn't turned up for school or returned my calls or my txts... my stomach attempts to squeeze itself to death as I fight against all the bad news stories it's telling me.
I search the sea of heads, spotting the shiney black hair of the girl I begged for information yesterday but she doesn't even meet my gaze, instead she keeps her eyes to the ground and shuffles past me
That is not good... not good at all
My heart rate picks up as it slowly begins to sink in that Taylor has changed her mind about us, I don't know who got to her or what they said but her complete lack of attention
over these last few days proves one thing... I'm yesterday's news and I'm not used to the whirlwind of emotion that stirs up in my chest.
"Travis"
I hear her voice as I'm slamming my locker shut and partaking In a half hearted conversation with Brian. I turn my head to the left and see her standing there. Her blue eyes wide, her lips open, her arms wrapped tightly around books that aren't me, I don't trust my voice so I just lift and then drop my chin in a greeting
"Can we talk?"
And here we fuckin go...
I walk over to where she stands and she looks up at me uncomfortably
"I'm so sorry..." her voice is soft but I notice the tremor in it, I bite down and straighten my spine, waiting for the words and preparing myself to take them like a man and not the little boy I feel like, once again stood in the fuckin kitchen asking where my mom and my sister were, my fathers 1 word reply blowing my young life to pieces 'gone' and looking down at Taylor now all I can think is she's going
"So..." the voice that says the word is barely recognisable as my own
"I have some stuff going on right now" her voice sounds just as strained as mine as we stand at the side of a packed hallway feeling like there is no one else in the world but the two of us
"Okay" I'm desperate to say the words first to jump before I am pushed, to attack in an attempt to defend but I bite down and force the words to stay behind my clenched teeth
"But I shouldn't have taken it out on you, I shouldn't have ignored your messages and calls, that wasn't fair of me"
"So why did you?"
"Because I don't know how to deal with my life right now"
"Let me in, let me help you" she nods and my entire body suddenly relaxes slightly. She isn't ending this, it isn't over
"I want to"
I can't stop myself from reaching for her and pulling her into a hug, I know she wasn't thrilled with the idea of everyone knowing about us but fuck it, I thought I was about to lose her and now it seems like I'm not and I will hug her in celebration of that no matter who the hell is around
"Let's skip today" she whispers into my neck as I tighten my arms around her
"Okay, what do you want to do? Beach? Nature reserve?"
"I want to have sex with you"
I loosen my grip in shock.
Did I just hear her right???
"Please" she whispers again, lacing her fingers with mine "I want to be that close to you today. I need you"
"Do you have any idea what you do to me when you speak like that?"
"Do you still want me like that Travis?"
"Fuck yes! In fact if you ever ask me that and I say no, then know there's something very, very wrong with me" I move though the crowd of people, heading in the direction they are all coming from. They are entering school and Taylor and I are now leaving and every part of my body is celebrating with both relief and expectation
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"Taylor are you sure your parents won't come home?" We are half way up the stairs to her bedroom and although I'm excited for what's to come I'm anxious not to make her parents dislike me any more than they already do
"Who would have thought you of all people would be scared to get caught sneaking into a girls bedroom" she giggles and tightens her grip on my hand and I just frown.
What the hell is happening to me?
Getting anxious, feeling scared... I drop my eyes closed all too aware that what is happening is I'm beginning to care and that is a scary thought all in it's own, I'm not sure I know how to care for another human being but looking down at her hand in mine I know that all I can do is try and learn because there's no stopping this now.
"Okay. Safe" Taylor giggles as she drops the lock on her bedroom door and then moves to close the curtains. "Can you light some candles, I made us a 'sex playlist' It should be ready just press play on my phone'
I pause and look at her in amazement "A sex playlist?"
"And candles, who knew you would be doing it in such a civilised way Kelce. Although we could go down to the basement and do it on the floor down there if you prefer, if it makes you feel more comfortable" she winks at me and begins to unbutton her black shirt as I shake my head, unable to speak at her boldness and then move to start lighting the candles.
By the time all 20 candles are lit and I have found the 'sex playlist' which she had discreetly named 'my giant' a nickname that made me laugh out loud I turn to find she has stripped out of all of her clothes and it standing in just a lacy black bra, lacy black thong and thigh high black stockings and some silky belt thing that's holding them up
"Tay!" I all but choke out, the sight before me causing ever part of me to go tight and hot
"I wanted to say sorry properly, reward you for putting up with me"
"Baby..."
she steps towards me and places her hands on my shoulders and I try to meet her eyes but my gaze is stuck on the wonders that lie south of her face
"I put these on desperate to see your face as you take them off"
"What the fuck did I do to get so lucky?" If I wasn't as turned on as I am right now I'm pretty sure I would have cried at how beautiful this girl, my girl looks and sounds right now
"You deserve this Travis, you deserve me" she kisses my neck and every drop of blood in my body floods my groin and I find myself desperate to tear the fabric from her flesh.
I put one arm around her waist and lift her up, her legs wrapping around me as her arms wrap around my neck and her lips close in on mine and as Ariana Grandes voice begins singing I walk us towards the bed, still struggling to comprehend how a loser like me managed to end up with someone was magical as Taylor but thanking my lucky stars that I did
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