Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

22

I have thought so much of death and dying that I never played with what it would feel like getting older.
I never thought I would live this long.
I feel old.
Though my body is young I feel aches and pains
Groaning upon waking like a woman thrice my age
I have a collection of pills on my bedside table
Arranged in colorful containers to remind me to take them
I may be 22 be I do not feel it
I feel older
Not wiser but I definitely don't feel like my age
I have lived and died many times in this lifetime
Breathed and woke and prayed and mourned countless people I used to be
I am only 22