Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Doll

I am a doll they get to dress up
And play with
To show off when company comes over
A toy they get to control
I have no feelings or desires
I do not exist outside of them
I am a doll
Suggestions are not optional
Wear your hair this way
You look better in green
So much prettier than in black than bright colors
Comments are personal
Meant to change me
Mold me as they see fit
My feelings don't exist
My pain isn't real
I am dramatic
I am lazy
I am fat
I only matter as it relates to them
I am sick?
Only because I need to lose weight
I'm fat?
This embarrasses them.
People stare at me?
I come home to a pamphlet about Ozempic
It doesn't matter how I feel or what I think
I study what they tell me
Get the grades they tell me
Go where they tell me
Eat what they tell me
Take the damn pills they tell me
My life is their storyline
I am nothing but what I can offer
No one
I am a doll