Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Fat People

It's a pillow I cling to while sitting down

Oversized clothes

Wear black and greys

Nothing flashy

Nothing that could be construed as offensive

Because we all know being fat in this life is offensive enough

We hide while standing right in front of you

All we want is to disappear

Melt away like seafoam

Away from prying, judgemental eyes

The world isn't kind to those it sees as different

Deems undesirable

It's the subtle comments

It's having to shop online just to buy a top that fits

It's being a kid and only being able to wear sweatpants because no stores carry your size

It's going to the pediatrician for sudden hair loss and being sent to a dietitian instead of being taken seriously

It's being told that you'd be pretty if

It's knowing that the boys you look at would never look at you

It's being laughed at

It's the clothes you say are styled oversized that are too small

It's being the butt of every joke and being expected to laugh

People looking at your stretchmarks and asking how you got cut

It's people always giving you the leftover food even though you've said you are full

It's never eating in front of others

It's sneaking into the kitchen to eat when you're six because your parents put you on a diet

It's crying because your dad bought you a treadmill for your birthday

Being humiliated when your parents make you exercise

Not being able to match with your sister any more

Not being allowed to borrow clothes because you'll stretch them out

Being called names

Always picked last in sports

Left behind on walks because you're slow

You don't matter

They don't care if you here

All because you're fat