Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Addictive

I have an addictive personality

My mother says it comes from her side

My father never says it but it runs in his too

I am doubled down with drunks

This means that I have a propension to become obsessed

My room is littered with collections of things of which I have no use

My bank account reflects this too

It's why I can never have a drink

Why I never take anything stronger than Advil

I have to have it

I can't stop

I rationalize it

I make it make sense when It can't

 when it doesn't

I get my life together just to watch it all fall apart again.