Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Different

I am different

I realize that

I've known that since I was four

While my father glared at me for crying on a sliding board I begged him not to force me to go on

I have never been like anyone else

While kids my age were playing I was combating immortality and my moral values in compulsions

When everyone else got into 1D and boys I had my head in a book

I wasn't smart

Wasn't pretty and didn't try to be

Even now I stand out

But now I realize that I don't want to be like the people around me

Judgment and prejudice taint every word out of their mouths

Ignorance and fear determine their actions

I doubt they even realize how hypocritical they are

Christians standing high and mighty as if the Bible defends them

They are blind to the call of their Master

Love is what is supposed to compel a Christian

If you have never seen this in a person then I'm sorry to tell you, you have never met a Christian

Just someone lost and misguided

I listen to them make jokes about me

Mocking my convictions and faith

These are my friends

I know they mean no harm

I don't take it to heart

But these are my people

The ones that love me and yet they ridicule me

It's no wonder why people fear being different

That's okay

You can laugh at me for being a virgin

You can laugh at me for praying

You can laugh at me for never doing this or that

Not drinking or clubbing

You can laugh at me just because

I ask myself how I became so different from these people

Why I am nothing like my family

And I realize that maybe this is who I was meant to be

I am supposed to be different

I am supposed to be apart from this world and so are you

Maybe the people laughing see that you are different too.