Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Mutation

Compassion is a mutation in the genes when cruelty runs through your veins

I've seen atrocities unworthy of being recorded on paper

I've felt helplessness watching these things

It was easier to blame myself for this seeming weakness

Then it was to acknowledge what was happening around me as real

That's how my family treated it anyway

Weakness

The memories flash through my mind

An old screen door slamming shut

A cat running

Their voices shouting

The look in their eyes

Their words

Carved into my brain like lovers' initials on tree bark

It's an endless, tormenting loop

My mutation makes me weak

Vulnerable

But I don't want to be strong if this is strength