It's funny how fears change
when I was small, I used to be terrified of staircases
Of the movie shutting off before I was asleep
Of being left alone in the car
Now I'm afraid of saying the wrong things
of being disliked
In the future I can sense the terror of hair torniquets and blue swimsuits.
Of allowing my eyes to stray just enough for the worst to happen
It's also interesting how certain fears never go away
I'm still afraid of anger of setting off the wrong person
I'm scared of standing out
Scared of Hell, heights, and bugs
Of itty-bitty spaces
Part of me is proud of the fears I've overcome
But the other part of me
The larger part
The part of my heart that rules my brain
Is still just that little girl who is scared of the dark.
