Musings on Life from a Dead Girl

Art

I want to paint like no one is looking
Like no one will laugh at my uneven lines
I want to draw like you'll be able to decipher an image from my pencil markings
I want paint on my hands
I want my floor full of canvas
I want my teacups filled with paint thinner
I want to feel the passion I felt before the world got in the way
Before my brain started to attack itself
Before I started to feel inadequate
I want to make art again not knockoffs from masters
Not traced photographs
Not what the world thinks is impressive
I just want to create again
But if art is in the eye of the beholder
And if my eyes are the only ones to ever gaze upon my work then no
No
I will never again create art