Jahnnie Oneshots 3☆

☆Johnnie's Thoughts Pt2☆

Request: SaturnMoon714

[ Johnnie is thinking about S/h, and Jake helps him through it. ]

TW: S/H thoughts, Suicidal Thoughts, depression, mental illness , panic attack

[ Pls skip if you're uncomfortable reading this ! ]

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Johnnie is sitting in the middle of his floor one night. His mind is racing and he is unable to fall asleep. He wishes he could. He wanted to so badly. But his mind wouldn't stop thinking these negative thoughts. He was spiraling down. He was in the rabbit hole of his own mind. He feels broken.

Staring at the razor blade between his fingers, and glancing at his wrist. He was having thoughts, - thoughts to harm himself.

"JAKE!" He yelled in a panic, he didn't know what else to do, he needed him.

Jake was just laying down in his bed, scrolling through his phone when he heard Johnnie call out for him. He sat up quickly and rushed over to his room.

"What? What's wrong?" Jake asked, concerned.

"I- i- uh.." Johnnie didn't know what to say. His hand is shaking as he is holding the razor near his wrist. He didn't make the cut, but he was about too.

Jake's eyes widened as he saw the razor blade in Johnnie's hand, his heart sank.
"No, no, no, no.." Jake quickly walked over and grabbed the razor blade from Johnnie's hand, setting it aside.

"Please don't do that.." Jake said, sitting down beside him.

Johnnie shakes his head, his hands shaking as he is watching Jake take that blade away from him.

Jake gently grabbed Johnnie's hands, holding them in his own."I need you to look at me.." Jake said, trying to get Johnnie's attention.

But Johnnies attention was on the razorblade. He can see his reflection somewhat in the sharp tiny object. He began to have shaky breaths, a panic attack was coming down.

Jake noticed Johnnie's shaky breaths and the way he was fixated on the razor blade. He gently cupped Johnnie's face, forcing him to look away from the razor.

"Hey, hey, hey.. look at me, okay? Look at me.." Jake said, his voice filled with worry and concern.

Johnnie's eyes are darting around, before he makes eye contact with Jake. His breathing was still shaken up. As he said in a panicked voice, "I- i was about too-"

"Shhh.." Jake said, gently placing a finger on Johnnie's lips to silence him.
"I know.. I know you were.." Jake said, his eyes filled with sadness. He moved closer to Johnnie, wrapping his arms around him in a tight embrace.

Johnnie is visibly shaking in Jake's arms as his eyes are fixated on the blade that was set aside. His blue eyes wide and full of pain as he is hyperventilating.

Jake held onto Johnnie tighter, rubbing his back in a soothing manner.
"It's okay, you're okay.." Jake whispered, trying to calm him down. "Just breathe with me, okay? Deep breaths.."

"Ca-can you get that shit away from me?" Johnnie couldn't get his eyes off the sharp object as he is panicking.

"Of course, I can.." Jake said, slowly letting go of Johnnie and reaching for the razor blade. He picked it up and put it in his pocket, out of sight."It's gone now, it's not near you anymore.."

"I- i know, where it is Jake- Get rid of it!" Johnnie exclaimed in a panic, backing up as he is shaking.

"I will, I promise.." Jake said, trying to reassure.