Resisting Ezekiel

XLII - Unconcious

Ben's POV

Nanginginig ako na tinitigan ang katawan ni Sandra sa harap ko. My hands were shaking as I held her head full of blood. Hindi ko alam kung pano nangyaring tumama yung ulo niya at dumugo. Alam ko na finorce kong hilahin ang katawan niya pero di ko akalaing sa sobrang lakas ng hila ko, humantong sa ganito ang pangyayari.

"Oh gosh! I'm so sorry." Bulong ko sa kawalan habang tinititigan ang walang malay na katawan ni Sandra sa harap ko. Hindi ko maipaliwanag yung nararamdaman ko ngayon. Parang gusto kong mahimatay sa sobrang overwhelming ng pakiramdam ko.

I immediately dialled Uno's number. Hindi ako pwedeng humingi ng tulong sa police at mas lalong di ko pwede itakbo sa hospital si Sandra. This is not part of the plan. I just want her to do what I want but she is so stubborn.

"Uno, please I need your help." Sabi ko sa kabilang linya ng sagutin niya iyon. Si Uno lang ang alam kong mahihingan ko ng tulong. I can't ask help from my brother or my stepdad. Mas lalo na sa kapatid ko. I can't bear to hear more lectures from him.

First of all, I didn't know na magkakilala pala si Sandra at ang kapatid ko. If they are close and he let her sleep inside his room, then Sandra must be an important person to my brother and I can't let him know what happened.

He will probably scold me and that's not what I want to hear from my brother. I hate him for treating me like a kid. If he ever finds out, it will be a lifetime lectures.

Nang patayin ko na ang tawag, pinagmasdan ko si Sandra. She is lying in front of me like a sleeping beauty. I'm not planning to kill her that's why I'm so worried at this point. I don't even know how to check her pulse if she's still alive or it's already worse. Si Uno lang alam kong pwedeng makatulong sakin. No one else. Tears starting to fall from my eyes.

I received a text earlier from my brother that he wants me to drop off his friend to its home. I never knew it was Sandra because he didn't mentioned any name. So I was surprised to see Sandra lying on my brother's bed.

I stormed out immediately and went back to my room when I came back to my senses that Sandra is actually inside our house. I immediately prepared myself. I took a bath, changed clothes and locked all the doors. I just don't want her to go anywhere. Good thing we can lock our doors from the inside. That's how tight the security is inside our house. I'm so happy na nagpunta na silang lahat sa work nila and that leaves me with Sandra alone. I went back to my brother's room immediately.

There, I saw Sandra sleeping. I couldn't control myself as I see her wearing my brother's clothes. I felt insecure and at the same time I felt envious to my brother because I thought that they had sex cause why the hell is she wearing my brother's clothes? But I realized that she is just a friend cause that's what my brother texted me earlier.

Pero hindi non nawala yung eagerness ko na angkinin si Sandra. I've been waiting her for so long and ngayong nandito na siya sa bahay, pakakawalan ko paba siya? Ni wala akong balita sakanya for two weeks and I found out na nagbakasyon siya and wala ako idea saang lupalop siya ng bansa. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko siya unang hahanapin. Sabi ni Uno, wala din daw ideya si Vanessa kung nasan ang dalaga.

Nang halikan ko ang kaniyang puson kanina, alam ko sa sarili ko na makukuha ko na siya ngayong araw. Yun ang matagal ko ng pinapantasya and God knows na alam kong di ko kayang kontrolin ang libog na nararamdaman ko para sa babae.

Just when I thought I can finally do what I want, she woke up. I really thought that she can find me attractive and she will give in but I didn't expect that she pushed me hard. If I didn't lock the door, she can definitely escape and ask for help.

I went downstairs when I recovered from her push and I didn't see her anywhere. I know that she was just hiding somewhere because I locked the doors and I have the keys. The only place I know that she can hide is the cabinet under the sink because that's the only place she can fit here downstairs. Others are all locked or too small for her to fit in.