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[the whole dialogue between Shawn and Andrew]

Shawn: Amy's here.

Andrew: What? Amy from Wattpad?

Shawn: Yeah. Exactly.

Andrew: What's she doing here?

Shawn: Where the fuck should I know that from? I guess, she's trying to make problems.

Andrew: Again?

Shawn: Well, yeah. I mean out of her perspective, I broke her heart.

Andrew: You didn't break her heart. You weren't a couple.

Shawn: Yeah, but out of her perspective, it was only a matter of time.

Andrew: So what? She has no right on you. There are millions of girls outside there that dream of you becoming their boyfriend, and they don't have a right on you, too.

Shawn: I know. But.

Andrew: But?

Shawn: She's trying to get in between Mandy and me.

Andrew: How?

Shawn: What if she's telling her (Hushes)

Andrew: What? You mean the whole songwriting-thing? Or do you think, she's gonna write another bad fanfiction?

Shawn: I mean the songwriting. She was really hurt Andrew. (rubs his fore-head.) I really thought that it would be the best to tell her the truth, because it wouldn't break her heart less.

Andrew: Knowing, that you never were really interested in her?

Shawn: Yeah. Guess so.

Andrew: Look Shawn. We've talked so many times about that. The plan...

Shawn: She was never a plan!

Andrew: Chill, Shawn. I know that you don't want to admit it, but it worked out, didn't it?

Shawn: When Mandy's finding out ...

Andrew: Then she's gonna understand.

(Shawn's keeping silent.)

Andrew: Shawn, don't be dumb. There's no need for her to know. Your relation-ship is working well, isn't it?

Shawn: But that's the point! It's working well, and I want it to do so in the future!

Andrew: I know, I know. But there is no need for her to know why you flirted with her in the beginning. It did all work out, didn't it?

Shawn: I just have the feeling, that something is gonna get inbetween us. Amy. – Or the press. I don't know. Just something. It's gonna ruin...

Andrew: Nobody's gonna ruin this, Shawn. Just chillax a bit. Take a deep breath.

Shawn: If she ever find's out...

Andrew: She's not gonna.

(Shawn: keeps silent)

Shawn
That's a disaster. A true disaster.
The whole situation - Amy being here on this party - is one of the many worst case scenarios that I've been dealing with in my mind.
My therapist eventually would say that I need to calm down, that I gotta speak finally with Mandy about what happened between Amy and me, and that I gotta do that fast because if I don't it's all getting worse.

I've never been a fan of lying – never. But over the last couple of months I found myself lying a lot. Well, I didn't lie like all the time. Not everything I did or said or felt has been a lie.
But it's all based on a lie.

Four years of a break are a lot for an artist.
I've been traveling, chillin', even trying weed in the deep nature on a mountain.
I danced to music I've never heard and sang song's I won't ever publish.

I felt deep sadness and high happiness.

I fell deep and I got high.

And then, right when I'm able to make steps in the studio, my label's sending me that email.
And suddenly, Andrew's calling me every five minutes, and having been on a mountain, taking weed and jamming with friends isn't enough anymore.