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Mandy

[🔔 ☎️ incoming call: Shawn Mendes]

I take a deep breath, then I take the call.
"Hello?"
My voice sound's cool (as the temperature, not the judgement).

"Mandy! Thank's god. I was really worried by now. What's going on?! How are you?"

"There's no need to talk much more than necessary," I say.

"What?"

I close my eyes for a moment. "Look Shawn. I've found out. I've heard you and Andrew talking. I know it, okay?"

Suddenly a total silence at the end of the line.

I can hear Shawn's breathing.

Then, he says: "Mandy..."

"No Mendes! Don't I deserve at least some respect? After all?"

It's as every time I have to hear Shawn's voice, my heart's breaking more. Gosh, how much I miss him.
I close my eyes again, using all my power to bring out the words understandable and strong. "All I want to tell you is: Whatever true may have been between us: It is over. We are over."

🎶

You must think that I'm stupid

"Over?"

You must think that I'm a fool

"Yeah. We're over. That's it." My voice's getting lost somewhere in the air between my mouth and the smartphone.

You must think that I'm new to this

"You don't mean that, Mandy."

But I have seen this all before

"Good luck with your next album."

I'm breaking.

"Bye Shawn."

"Mandy-"

"Bye John Doe."

And when I put down the phone, tears fill my eyes.

Everytime you hurt me, the less that I cry
and every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry

And the tears that fill my eyes are the first tears that fill my eyes for days.
I didn't cry, I couldn't cry. I was in a shock.

And now, when the shock is passing by, the realization is getting over me:

I broke up with Shawn.

We're broken.

No more shared laughter.

No more shared kisses.

Shawn and I are over.

I'm way too good at goodbyes

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🎶 Song:
Too Good at Goodbyes – Sam Smith

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