Scatter Hearts

August 2024.

- I was worried. Ashlyn had been missing or just not on vrc, there is that, all month, again. By the time my birthday rolled around and Sammy's family forced me to celebrate it, like it mattered, like my age mattered.. hehh.. 

"Sammy's" age.. I went by Sainkra by then, yes, but I didn't realize we were not one in the same yet.. 

One day in VRC, right when we were about to film an episode, Ashton, our brother, joined the instance. We thought he would join us in the RP, like in the past. Turned out he was too busy..  somehow his cancer spread to his chest, his lungs ig, idk what specifically was said that he had, and he was dying soon.. Korrey and I broke down crying right there. 

-Btw, our other siblings/ fellow actors were also there-

He was there maybe a few minutes and left. We needed ten to calm down and try to get back to work. 

At some point, Ashton was spending all his time with his girlfriends (Yes, multiple, ig he was poly or something). -We called them his hoes because we didn't like any of them.. - and his daughter was feeling neglected. 

Rumors that he lied about alot of things had spread. -One being the one about him knowing two youtubers he had promised me and kor he knew; the other being about having cancer, ig. Another was very inappropriate, and one about him I do not wish to associate with or directly bring up, as I still deeply care about and love him like a brother, but want nothing to do with, and being the reason we cut him off and out of our lives as best we could; The thought had been about all of it being for attention, minus the last one.- 

Soon the daughter chose Kor as her new dad and he quickly and happily adjusted to the new role. 

-Ashton was not so happy about this, I hear.- 

Around this time, Ashlyn- the only ash in my life that matters - texted me, reminding me of her brother Zane, and told me to go hang out with him. -well she more put is as, hey if you wanna talk to them their username is this- 

I did, and he seemed chill -Is chill : P - and I tried getting to know him. I wanted -and still do- to know him as a person better, and as my brother better. I think he was filming with us a few months prior, when he and Ash used to share an account. I remember being happy to have another new brother -I still am. I still love this man to death (Sibling love, calm down) 

-As far as I knew, in my lowest moment in January, I asked God for a sister, and he gave me a family. <3 - 

Aside from this both being condensed, it didn't all happen so fast. 

End of August. 

Next section, September. hehh.. one battle won..