My Destiny [COMPLETED]

♔ MD 36 - Coward ♔

Copyright © jeanariamontes, 2015

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"It's not what you think, Steven." Saad ko. Mas lalong kumabog ang dibdib ko. I feel like an idiot. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya at hinihintay kung may sasabihin ba siya pero tumalikod lang siya at lumakad. Hinarap ko naman si Kendrick.

"Pinlano mo yun no!" singhal ko sa kanya. He smirked and leaned closer to me.

"I never planned anything. Bakit ka nagagalit? You enjoyed it right?" nanunutyang niyang wika. I slapped him. Hindi ko akalaing nahuhuli niya naman ako. Sapo niya ang pisngi na sinampal ko.

"You know Kendrick, I just realized how sick you are. Pinaglalaruan mo ba ako? Gahd Ken! Let's just stop this! Nalilito at nahihirapan na ako." I said in gritted teeth as I try to hold back my tears. He was about to speak but I walked away from him. Pinuntahan ko ang kwarto ni Steven.

Kumatok ako ng dalawang beses. "Steven, please. Let's talk." Pakiusap ko pero walang sagot. Pinihit ko na ang door knob at nang mabuksan ko ang pinto, nakita ko siyang nakaharap sa bintana. Nakatayo nama ako sa gitna ng doorway.

"Steven," I called. He turned his head but he didn't face me. "I'm sorry."

Pero hindi pa rin siya nagsalita.

"I thought it was you." Saad ko. He scoffed and turned around. Lumakad siya papalapit sa akin. Magkaharap na kami pero wala akong emosyon na mabasa sa mga mata niya. I feel guilty and confused. My heart is thumping and I'm scared of what I'm feeling.

"Akala mo ako? Are you that stupid, Bianca?" his voice was low. Pakiramdam ko galit siya, kinabahan ako. "I know you are smarter than that." Lumapit pa siya sa akin at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang balikat.

"Please, just be honest with me." His voice was pleading and I finally saw something in his eyes. He was hurt. Bigla naman akong nakaramdam ng kirot sa puso. I don't want to see him like this.

I sighed. Tinitigan ko siya straight to the eye. "Actually, I knew it was him. I just didn't have the guts to push him away. Pero pagkatapos ng halik na yun, I realized how I felt for him." Nag-uunahang tumulo ang luha ko. I just want to cry.

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[Kendrick's POV]

Damn that Steven, he's ruining my plans. If he wasn't here, I probably could have Bianca back by now. We kissed for fuck's sake! I know she still has feelings for me, she wouldn't kiss me that way if she didn't. I immediately went out of my room to follow her.

I was about to walk to Steven's room when I saw Bianca's shadow from the wall. She was standing in the middle of the doorway and Steven was holding her.

"Actually, I knew it was him. I just didn't have the guts to push him away. Pero pagkatapos ng halik na yun, I realized how I felt for him." I heard Bianca say. I was right, she knew it was me. I stepped a little bit closer to hear what she would say next.

"I loathe him, Steven. And I just want to forget him." I heard her sniffle. I suddenly felt a pang of heartache. Am I that bad? I sighed and shook my head. I don't want her to forget me, I want her to go back to me.

"Then let me help you, Bianca. Please, I don't want to see you like this." Steven said. His voice was almost pleading to her. Will she let him? Please say no, Skye...

"Okay, sorry talaga Steven." She said after a moment of silence.

I felt like there where a million knives stabbing my heart. I hurriedly walked back to my room and sat down on the floor. I was a jerk. How could I be so stupid? How could I be such a coward? Love is such a scary word for me. That's the reason why I can't say it. Everyone knows me as a womanizer, not a stick-to-one guy. I was heartless, never cared.