Today was the first day of filming for the Wild music videos, and I'd told Connor that he couldn't be on the set for this video. I really wanted the song to be a surprise for him, and this would certainly give it away if he were there. The idea for the videos were that they were a trilogy, they were there to tell a story.
The scary part about filming these videos was that there had to be a romantic twist to the plot-line, and I couldn't use Connor as the other boy,
1. Because HP already hired an actor
2. Fans would freak out way too much
So there's my short, brief list.
On set, there were two little boys running around who were going to play me, and my love interest in younger form. I then came across a tall, muscular, broad shouldered male, who others called by the name of Matthew. "Hey Troye." He said throwing a flirty smirk to me as he walked closer, squeezing a bottle of water. "Uh- hi." I managed to say with out flinching nervously. 'No.' I thought.
'No, no, no, no, no, no, no. This is so wrong. I have a boyfriend. I can't have a make out scene with a hot guy, that isn't Connor. I need to tell Connor and make sure he's okay with this.' I talked to myself in my head for a minute or two before noticing I was staring directly into Matthew's eyes. "Are you okay?" He asked, giggling awkwardly. I quickly averted my eyes to my hands, which were empty. Shakily, I got out my phone from my pocket and looked back up at Matthew, laughing nervously. "I- I need to make a call."
I walked away as fast as I could to an empty area where no one was, and leaned on a tree. I found Connor's name in my contacts and quickly pressed call. It rang once, twice, three times, fou- "Hey Troye, what's up?"
"Connor, hi." I was relieved at the sound of his voice. "Hey Troye Boy, is everything alright?"
"No, yeah, kind of.......I don't know."
"What's up." The way Connor spoke made the phrase sound more like a statement rather than a question.
"This is a bit of an awkward question......"
"Hit me with it."
"Uhh......okay."
"Mhm?"
"So, in the music videos........there's a uhhh....."
"Yeah, keep going."
"There's a make out scene....?" I stated my words as if it were a question.
"Okay, and?"
"I'm going to be making out with another guy.......and I just wanted to make sure you were okay with that, I guess."
"Okay, well, as long as you don't feel a connection of any sort, and you still like me afterwards, I don't really think there's an issue."
"Oh, yeah, okay, yeah, understood." Every time I paused between my sentence, I let out a bit of air that sounded quite like a laugh, all though it was very much just relief. "I love you Troye." Connor's words echoed through the phone and rung in my head. "I love you too."
"Have fun on set okay?"
"I'll try."
"Bye Troye."
"Bye." The line was silent because Connor hadn't hung up. He was waiting for me.
"Do I have to hang u-"
"Wait." I said back, cutting him off. "I want you to be on set with me tomorrow. Please, I'm more comfortable with you." Connor laughed a little. "Of course." He said. "I'd love to be on set with you." I smiled to myself or a little bit. "Okay. Okay thanks."
