Connor and I were walking on our way to the set by eleven a.m., since we had to be there by twelve. I was happy that Connor would be there with me, but was it going to be awkward with the whole make out thing? I couldn't get my mind off of that.
Trying to free my mind of things, I started telling Connor about the song Fools that we were filming for today. I didn't go into much detail, because the song was most definitely about a relationship that I'd had earlier, and the message was directed towards me. What I did tell him though, was that there were going to be three videos, like a trilogy.
At around eleven twenty-ish, Connor and I arrived at the set. I was greeted today by my producer, and I introduced him to Connor. We chatted for a bit, and then I showed Connor around. I took him inside the teenage looking room with the bed. "So here's where the awkward stuff is gonna happen." I explained to him. Connor looked and me and sighed sarcastically. "It's only gonna be awkward if you make it awkward."
"How can this kind of thing not be awkward?"
"Good point."
"This was my idea, and now I don't even wanna do it." I felt Connor's hand on my shoulder. "Don't worry about it." He said. Although I couldn't help but worry about it. I didn't like Matthew. I was just worried that Connor's feelings would be hurt. 'Why did I even invite him on set today?' I thought to myself. It took me a while to realize that I had been zoned out looking at the floor, thinking about everything that was going on. Connor's hand was still on my shoulder, and he squeezed it. "Troye." I looked up at Connor. "Listen, this is gonna be such a kick-ass video. You have such a good idea for it! Don't worry about me. I'm not gonna be jealous or anything. Well, maybe a little jealous, because I'd like to be the one making out with you, but my point is, it's not going to upset me. Troye, you and Matthew, you guys are actors. The reason you guys are actors is because you guys are good at acting. Nothing is going on between you and Matthew, it's just acting." I smiled and blushed a little bit. "Okay." I said as my voice broke. "Okay, I'll try not to worry about it too much." I felt a little better, but then I remembered that it wasn't really about how I felt, it was how Matthew felt.
Connor and I sat on the bed together and talked for a while until the camera men, along with Matthew and the producer, came into the room. Connor politely stood up from the bed and stood alongside the producer, and motioned for Matthew to sit on the bed with me. This was going to be so awkward. Matthew sat down on the bed in front of me, not long before the producer asked if we were ready, and yelled "Action!"
After we were done shooting the scene I put my shirt back on and left the room without saying a word to anyone. I felt Connor following behind me. I felt his eyes on me. I didn't think anyone else really noticed that I left the room because I felt uneasy. Connor was really the only one. "Troye!" I heard him call. I turned around so find that I was quite a far distance away from him. He began to jog to catch up to me. "Hey." he said, panting slightly when he caught up. "You did amazing! That scene is gonna look so good!" I tried to pretend to smile, but it didn't turn out as great as I'd wanted it to. "What's the matter Tro-?"
"I'm sorry." I cut off Connor. "Why are you sorry? You have nothing to be sorry for."
"I wrote the script that way."
"So?"
"I wouldn't have had to make out with another guy if I hadn't put that in the script."
"Troye, listen to me, please."
"I'm listening."
"It's. OKAY."
"You're not mad or anything right?"
"Troye, if I were mad, I would've told you not to shoot that scene." I looked down at the sand where I was standing. I didn't say anything back, so Connor continued to talk. "Why are you beating yourself up about this?"
"I don't want to lose you."
"You're not going to lose me, I promise." I looked up at Connor and beamed. He took my hand and began to pull me, walking closer to the set. "Come on," He started, "It's time for you to film another scene." We both walked back to the set, holding hands and laughing.
