Untied String (Completed)

Chapter 29

We have the love. We just have to make it a little private. Because it's not for the world to know, but for us to nurture. -Ms. Cari

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"Ano'ng nangyari? Nakausap mo ba?"

"He is not coming back. He is staying there for good."

I was the last person to know that my boyfriend is living with her ex-girlfriend. I should have known better. But, I trust him that it led me to being stupid.

My boyfriend is half korean and half filipino. Since we have been together I knew that he could be great as those artist. He leads a band. He is great. And as a supportive girlfriend, I let him flew to Korea to achieve his dreams. Not knowing that I was been stabbed.

"Paano na?"

"There's no way I could get out with this."

"What if we stick to the first plan?"

"I cannot! That's really a ridiculous thing."

How can I pay someone to be the father of my son? Ano 'yon? Babayaran ko siya para sa sperm niya? Goodness!

"Bakit may iba kapa ba'ng naiisip na paraan? Magmamahal ka na lang ng iba pang lalaki maliban kay Peter and you'll make love to him? Wow!"

"That's not what I am thinking. Insemination?"

"Baliw kaba! Kaninong sperm?"

"Ewan!"

"Alam mo hindi kasi ako pabor eh. Bakit hindi na lang totohanin. I mean, search for a man that is willing to take your offer."

"I don't know, Glow. Bahala na."

I am still figuring out what I will do. Am I willing to risk my virginity to stranger just to bear a child? Goodness! I never think of that thing.

"Hey! Tulala ka riyan. Thinking of Sheen? Maayos naman ang anak natin doon. Sila mommy naman kasama niya," untag sa akin ni Cole.

Nandito ako sa veranda ng hotel na tinuluyan namin noon. Matapos akong maligo ay dito na ako dumeretso para sa sariwang hangin.

Nakatanaw lang ako sa maliwanag na paligid nang ikulong niya ako sa bisig niya. Amoy na amoy ko ang mint aftershave na ginamit niya.

"Naalala ko lang 'yung pag-uusap namin ni Glow noon. Bago ako mapunta rito at bago kita kausapin tungkol sa kontrata."

"Ah. Alam ko na ba 'yan? Naikuwento mo na sa akin?"

"No. Alam mo ba na hindi ikaw ang first choice ko?" usisa ko sa kaniya.

Agad siyang napalayo at nagulat dahil sa sinabi ko. Kaya agad ko naman iyong binawi. "Peter was my first choice. When I found out I have a tubal cancer and I would be needing an operation. Siya agad ang naisip ko. Sabi ko pa, if my operation would be a success. I would fly to Korea to ask him to make with me. Pero wala na eh. Naisip kong bakit pa? Eh kaya nga siya umalis para makasama ang mahal niya. Talo na nga ako, mas matatalo pa ako. Okay lang sana kung naisip niya man lang na bumalik pa. Pero hindi eh. He has no plan of returning back  here." I confessed. "But, I have no regrets. I chose you. I chosr the best."

"Hindi na naman mahalaga eh. What important is what we are right now. Wala na akong pakialam pa sa nakaraan na 'yon. Ako ang una o hindi, hindi na mahalaga. I just want to be your last from now on."

"Thank you for having the urge and potential of staying with me. I know I am stone-hearted and my attitude really sucks. But soon, I'll get to repay you. I do not know how, but maybe bearing more babies with you is enough."