Breaking Ice

Chapter 25

Isaac's POV:

My journal is due in 7 weeks and I haven't even started. Twelve prompts, one boy.

I pulled the notebook out of my dresser and started the first prompt, write a letter to a dead person. Might as well do dad, that's what she wants right?

Dear Dad or Josh,

You're dead. Well you know that because you did it. You left me and mom. Hayden wasn't even born yet and you bailed out on us. I would have bailed after Hayden anyways let's be honest here but come on. You were supposed to my father, my hero, the person I go to for advice and then poof you're dead. I don't even know if I can call you dad anymore because I didn't even know you. Mom tells stories about you all the time but I can't believe them. Mom makes you seem like such a great guy but you abandoned us. Every part of myself that I can't stand I get from you. I'm afraid of myself because of you. I'm afraid of what I'll become, I'm afraid I'll turn into who you were. I don't want to abandon my future kids. You had a choice just like Steve did. You could have gotten help, or talked to mom. I know it's hard to block out the bad thoughts and to believe you're good enough. I'm like that now because of you. But thank you for making the first four years of my life pretty cool. One of the first things I remember is you making a fool of yourself looking for a stuffed Jellyfish at the aquarium. You looked so hard for a stupid jellyfish. Thank you for the four years I got to spend with you.

Your son,
Ice

As I finished writing I saw that a few tears had fallen. I didn't think writing a stupid letter would evoke so much emotion. I hate that something so little as a letter can make me cry.

  I looked down at my phone and saw a thousand messages from Corey. Jacki must have told him. I texted him that I was on my way over.

"MOM EMERGENCY COREYS HOUSE" I yelled not knowing where in the house she was

"Isaac calm down" Mom yelled she was sitting next to the book case

"Sorry" I smiled

"What's wrong with Corey? Have you been crying?" She asked

"Corey and Jax broke up and no I got dust or something in my eye"

"I told you to dust your room. Give Corey my love"

"I'll be home sooner than later, love you" I laughed grabbing my board

I skated down the street to Corey's house where I found him laying down in his driveway.

"Fucking hell Cor why are you out here it's cold as shit" I yelled

"I'm dead inside anyways what's the difference between being dead outside" he sighed acting all poetic

"Corey Arnold Duncan get your ass of the driveway and come inside with me"

"Your cousin dumped me because she's gay Isaac. Why would she date me in the first place if she was gay? Like who the hell does that to another person. I never want to see her again" Corey yelled throwing a bottle

"Corey are you drunk" I asked

"Why does it even matter?"

"Because you aren't making any fucking sense you've known Jacki basically your entire life. You know she didn't do this on purpose. She can't control who she is and you fucking know that. So if you are going to be like this I'm going home" I said picking my board up

"She broke my heart Isaac. I had real feelings for her, it wasn't bull shit like usual. FUCK!" He yelled "how would you feel if Carly broke up with you because she was gay?"

"If it would make her happy not being in a relationship with me than so be it. And she's bi so there is a chance she'd break up with me for a girl" I yelled back

"Go home Isaac go home" he yelled

"Not until you go in your fucking house I don't want you freezing to death, call me when you're sober" I said pushing him to his door

Yes exactly what I needed right now. A drunk, heartbroken best friend. Sure break-ups suck but they haven't even been dating that long, maybe 3 weeks? It happens a lot more than people realize, thinking you are romantically attracted to someone but it turns out it's just really being into your friendship.

After Corey went inside I skated back home, exhausted. I didn't even do anything physical I'm just emotionally drained.

"How is he?" I heard as I walked in the house, setting my board down

"Drunk and stupid" I sighed looking up

Jacki was sitting on the couch with mom.

"I'm such a horrible person" Jacki cried into mom

"No you aren't Jax, he's being unreasonable" I told her sitting down

"I shouldn't have even went out with him in the first place" she sighed

"Jax it's okay, he's just in shock or whatever. It's a lot to take in but don't beat yourself up over it, he's just being dramatic" I smiled

"So is there a girl you like that made you believe it?" Mom asked her

"Yeah there has been a few but they are all straight so I guess I'll just have to wait it out, I'm only a sophomore" Jacki shrugged

"Have you told Ty and Jenna?" I asked

"No, I don't know how to tell them, like do I just walk in the house and be like 'what's up dudes I'm gay' or make cookies that spell out 'yo I'm gay' it's hard" she laughed

"Do the cookies, Ty can't resist cookies" I laughed

"Yeah I might do that but after this weekend it's Halloween so maybe when November starts, yeah November" Jax laughed

"Well Jax you better head home I don't want them freaking out on me" mom said kissing her forehead

"Thank you Ahme, see you tomorrow Ice, love you guys" Jacki said leaving

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A/N

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed!

Guess what I have again..... writers block. I know a lot of you are like "writers block doesn't exist" or "woah dude you always have writers block" but what you don't know is that I write as many chapters as I can while I'm not on block. Plus I've written so many chapters in the past for this 'universe' that I want to keep it fresh and exciting. I don't want to let you guys down with the quality of my writing which is why writers block is horrible.

Anyways I hope you are all well and excited for the all holy day of spooks!

Q: What are you being for Halloween?

-Izzy

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