Breaking Ice

Chapter 61

Amelia's POV:

My date with Carter the other night was really nice but today is therapy day. Finally ending my relationship with Josh has been incredibly hard. It was necessary but doesn't make anything easier.

The longer I think about our relationship and it's beginning the more I realize how naive I was. I can't believe I did that, I should have listened to Shane and my mom.

"Amelia what do you think would have happened if you hadn't started dating Joshua" Wendy my therapist asked

   I didn't want to go to the same therapist as Isaac, just in case it would cause a conflict.

"I have no idea, probably would have tried harder to get into University and moved North later on then I did"

"Why didn't you try"

"I was afraid that if I went Josh wouldn't have wanted to be with me since I'd be too consumed with school"

"You were fourteen when you started dating Joshua correct"

"Yeah, I loved his band and they helped me feel better about having depression. I never thought it would end up into a relationship when he asked me to the movie. I just thought it was because I had gotten them the show. I was so naive and didn't understand what the hell was going on"

"It's not your fault Amelia, do not think like that" Wendy said staring at me

"I should have known better. I'm constantly telling Hayden and Isaac not to date anyone more than two years older than them and here I am. Their father is twelve years older than me, Travis was four years older, Carter is nine years. I'm a horrible example"

"Amelia you can't help who you're attracted to. You're also a grown woman who can date within any age range. When you were younger you were naive and didn't know any better, that's the lesson you can pass on to your kids" Wendy smiled

"I wish I could go back and talk to my younger self sometimes. Even though my whole life would be different I just want to tell her it was wrong"

"Next time you come in bring a picture of young Amelia. I hate to cut the session short but time is up."

"Thank you Wendy, see you next week."

"It's not your fault Amelia. Remember that" She smiled opening the door for me.

    The entire ride home I was stuck in my own head. Hayden is nearly the age I was when I met Josh. She didn't seem to be that interested in anyone but neither did I until Josh. I needed to talk to Hayden even though I've done it a million times before.

"Hayden, Can I talk to you" I called up the stairs

"I'm nearly fourteen Mom I've got it by now" She sighed "I'm not going to be like you were, I mean that in the nicest way possible"

"I get it Hayden, I'm just worried. You get where I'm coming from" I sighed

"I do mom but you don't need to worry about me. Besides Isaac's friends are the only people older than me I talk too" Hayden smiled

"I'm always here Hades. If you don't want to talk to me, you know you have someone. Luke, Steve, Jenna anyone"

"Yes Mom, good talk. I have homework" Hades said getting up

Life is crazy. It feels like just yesterday this whole crazy thing started. I started dinner and twenty minutes later Luke comes in yelling in Italian. This is my life. We all took Italian together and when him and Steve went to Italy on their honeymoon they learned some more.

"They picked up my play Amelia how can they just drop it, we casted it!" he yelled in English for once

"Honey" I sighed hugging him

"It was supposed to debut in June, there isn't going to be enough time, la mia vita è finita."

"Luke, your life isn't over. You'll find another theatre. It may not be showing in June but it will one day"

"Amelia you don't get it. I wanted to have my show started before the baby was born. We found one Amelia. We're going to be dads" he cried.

"Holy shit. Congrats padre" I grinned hugging him

"Zia Ahme" He smiled "You can't tell Steve okay he'll kill me, he wanted to wait until it was closer just in case the mother backs out"

    Luke and I sat on the couch and he told me all the details. The baby was due in July and he was buzzing. I never knew Luke to be excited about a kid like this. We've all grown up so much.

"You'll get your play out there Luke, we'll find another theatre you can have the same cast. Lucious CapaSon will be in bold letters on programs. Do you want me to call Maggie and see what happened?" I asked

"Thanks Ahme, but I know what happened. Maggie moved to Seattle and the guy who took over her theatre is a prick and didn't like my play because it's not family friendly. MY PLAY IS ABOUT FAMILY"

"It talked about you and Steve doesn't it"

"Not Steve and I but characters similar to us" he sighed "it's twenty thirty six damn it why can't I write a play about my fucking husband and I and our dysfunctional quirky family the hell"

"I know Lukey I'm gonna go down there and show that prick who he's messing with" I said standing up

"Amelia don't it's not your fight" he said

"I'm gonna go all Momma Bear on his ass Luke and you can't stop me"

I grabbed my keys and coat before walking out the door. Luke was trailing behind me.

"Amelia if you're going I'm coming with you" Luke sighed getting in my car, I texted Hayden to keep an eye on the kitchen since dinner was still cooking.

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A/N
Long time no update kiddos. I'm feeling a little nostalgic tonight so thought I'd revisit this.

Little life update: I went to Warped Tour in Tampa yesterday and had the time of my life. I've never been happier than I was then. I am paying for it today though. If anyone knows how to get rid of a sore throat from screaming hit your girl up. I'm starting my Senior year of high school on Friday so that's terrifying. I started writing this series in 7th grade I can't believe it's already been like 5 years.

Q: how are you?

-Izzy