Breaking Ice

Chapter 58

Amelia's POV:

     I couldn't believe what came out of Josh's mouth.

"No Josh. I don't want this to be another mistake for you" I said turning around and walking out the front door.

I ran to my car with tears streaming down my face. I'm way too fucking old to be bawling my eyes out in my car over some guy. If I sit here for a few minutes maybe he'll come back out and apologize. Fifteen minutes passed by before Jenna pulled into the driveway. She sent the kids inside, staying outside with me, soothing me as I explained everything.

"AJ I'm so sorry. You are way too good for him. He's changed, he's gotten so angry and it's to nobodies fault but his own. Do not give him the time of day. Don't talk to him until you get the papers filed Ahme" She said staring into my eyes and holding my shoulders

"Thank you JJ. I should have known that this was going to end badly."

"Ahme you couldn't have known he would have reacted like that. It's totally out of character for the Josh we knew. You need to get some sleep and then go to Steve's tomorrow. He always makes you feel better. None of this is your fault"

"I love you Jenna. Thank you for everything, you always know what to say" I smiled

"It's kind of a gift" she laughed

"I'll see you soon JJ" I said hugging her before walking to the car.

The drive home was weird. I feel like I've lost myself. Josh really knows how to fuck someone over. When I got home the kids were watching Elf in the living room. Christmas was coming and it felt odd to have all this going wrong during the Holidays.

"Hey guys" I fake smiled sitting down next to Hayden

"Where's Dad?" Isaac asked

"He's staying at Tyler's, your Dad and I are splitting up" I said, I always wanted to be completely honest with them.

"What why? He just came back" Hayden said shocked

"Neither of us are the same person we were before he left and he had some not so nice things to say about it. I don't want you guys or myself to be around that toxicity. I made a promise to myself, for the safety of you two to never be in a relationship that ended up like my own parents" I explained

"What did he say?" Isaac asked, cheeks turning red

I want to be honest with them but, I don't want to hurt their feelings at the same time. What Josh said was terrible and I didn't want them to feel the pain of it.

"It doesn't matter. All you two need to know was that it was enough for me to make this decision." I sighed

  It's not a lie.

"Jeez, will anything here be normal" Isaac sighed

"Will we still be able to see Grandma an everybody on his side of the family?" Hayden asked

"Of course sweetheart. I may not be able to go with you but you definitely can see them. I would never keep you from family"

"I'm sorry Mom" Isaac said hugging me

"Honey it's not your fault. None of this is either of your faults do you hear me. This only has to do with your father and I" I said pulling them both closer.

     These kids are so strong. They have been trough way too much for kids their age. Just yesterday they were running around chasing Flyzik and now here they are comforting me. They've been through way to much. They thought they lost their father, these kids carried their own grief for a man who was alive this entire time.

My phone buzzed and it was a message from Carter, asking if I wanted to go to dinner tomorrow night. I deserve to have night out with someone I'm interested in.

"Hey is it alright with you guys if I go out to dinner with Carter tomorrow night?" I asked the kids

"Of course you deserve to hang out with someone your age that's not Steve" Isaac laughed

I sent Carter a text accepting his offer. Today had flown by so fast that I was exhausted. After saying goodnight to the kids I went to take a shower.

    My tattoos on my legs were fading thanks to the weather. Breaking up with Travis meant that I no longer had a tattoo artist to work with. It was crazy seeing how some of my tattoos have changed over the past few years. My 8123 tattoo has nearly faded completely, with the three blown out. The worst was the constant reminder of Josh tattooed on the back of neck. I couldn't see it but catching it in the mirror when I have my hair up, or someone asking about it caused my chest to tighten. Not my greatest idea. I was nearly covered ankle to wrist with tattoos. My back piece wasn't done yet and I'm scared to see Travis to get it finished, knowing another artist wouldn't finish it.

    The temperature had dropped ten degrees since I took my shower. Quickly I dried my hair and put on some cozy pajamas. Slipping into bed I could hear voices in the living room. Peaking my head out I could see Hayden's back and Josh in front of her, what the hell is he doing here? Turning back in my room I took a deep breathe and the door slammed shut. Hayden my sassy, little firecracker.

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A/N

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed! I'm sorry for missing last weeks update, I was sick and everything's a bit messy right now. How was everyone's Halloween?

Q: How do you feel about Josh and Amelia's breakup? Will it last?

-Izzy