Breaking Ice

Chapter 45

Amelia's POV:

   I couldn't believe what I saw. Josh was sitting on the couch drinking tea with Luke. I had only had one beer, I couldn't be drunk enough to believe this.

"Amelia" Josh said standing up

"No" I said backing away "you're not real"

"Let me explain" he said coming closer

"Explain what? You're dead and I'm drunk or asleep or something" I said

"Amelia you're not" he said grabbing my hands

   I couldn't help myself, I just started hitting his chest.

"You ruined my life Joshua" I yelled

"Baby I'm sorry" he said grabbing my wrists

"Don't fucking touch me" I yelled pulling my wrists back

"Luke explain" I said bursting into the apartment

"Josh showed up here earlier and was like hey guys I'm alive and at this point in time I know just as much as you" Luke said quickly and putting his hands up

"Joshua sit down and explain yourself" I said glaring at him

"Well uh I'm alive. I love you. I'm sorry" He said with a small smile

"Fuck you" I said tears starting to fall

"Amelia, this wasn't my plan. You know how Ronnie and I were super close. Well I was helping him out with some stuff involving Mr.D and I got a bit too involved and the only way to get out of it was to die so here we are" Josh explained

"Why didn't you fucking tell me?"

"It had to be for real. I couldn't tell you. I wanted to I really fucking wanted to"

"I hate you"

"I hate me too"

"Hold the fuck up you said you went to rehab" Steve said glaring at Josh

"That's what I'm supposed to say so I don't get killed"

"I don't like being lied to Dun"  Steve said getting angrier by the second

"I'm sorry Steve"

   Within seconds Steve had leaped onto Josh and began punching him in the face. The two began rolling and fighting. Steve is drunk. Josh is fucking stupid. This isn't good.

"Stevie stop it" Luke said pulling him off Josh

   Both of them had blood going down their faces. Josh was sure to have a black eye tomorrow. Luke grabbed Steve and pulled him into the bathroom.

"Carter can you drive me home?" I asked

"Yeah of course" he said spinning his keys

    He put his arms around my waist and helped me down the stairs. Tears started streaming down my face. I thought I lost him. Josh was everything to me. My first love. My first everything. He's a fucking asshole I hate him.

"I'm so sorry Carter, you shouldn't be dragged into this" I said whipping my tears away

"Amelia it's fine. You mean a lot to me and I want you to always know I'm here if you need to talk to someone" He smiled as he parked in my driveway

"Thank you Carter" I said reaching over and hugging him

I got out of the car and went up to the door. Fuck. How do I tell the kids? I composed myself before unlocking the door. This has to wait until tomorrow.