Writings

Hate

A/N: just ignore me. idek (Bold: Demon) (Italics: My negative thoughts) (Regular: Me talking)

**Maybe triggering? Idk. I tried not to make it that way.... i'm sorry**

~Samm 😭😭😭

i hate myself so much rn. i've ruined everything. damn it. it's all my fault. i've lost her now too. great job sam. you lost another one. you're so stupid. damn it what the hell is wrong with you!? look what you fucking did! i can't talk to... linzy left. and now she's not answering. fan-fucking-tasic! see? this is why no one likes you. this is why you don't have any friends. they all hate you and you know it. when was the last time you talked to any of them? hurts doesn't it? you should just get over it now. i bet she won't come back. you abandoned her all day. she's pissed at you. ofc she is! why wouldn't she be? what do you have to offer her? that's right nothing. go on keep checking to see if she replied she hasn't and she won't. you're fucking stupid. this is why he doesn't like you either. and look at you jumping to conclusions. ha! you deserve this. reload the page like that's gonna help. this is what you get for thinking you actually had friends. you end up with no one. just the way i wanted it. stop checking! she doesn't care! she hates you. always has. bc everything's your damn fault. all of it. you got her in trouble so she can't talk to you. you pushed linzy away and now you've done the same thing with her. you're fucking sick! don't deny it. just leave already! no one wants you here. and don't you dare think about going to him bc he doesn't want you either. no one does. never forget that. join me in hell where all the other unwanted children are. that's all you are. an unwanted child. you've done this to yourself. and even i hate you. but i always have. i know what you're thinking. go ahead and do it. what's it gonna matter? no one cares about you anyway. you said it yourself. look at you, you can't even type. keep crying. i live for it. you deserve this. you really do. you're a horrible person. why would anyone want you? why would anyone care about you? why would anyone do anything but hate you? you're despicable. you're trash. throw yourself out! you don't deserve anything good in your life. don't bother trying. just post this and leave. we don't want you anymore. we never did. this is all your fault. if you'd been a better friend you wouldn't be here rn. you wouldn't be in this place. in this position. they all left bc you're a bad friend. you're a bad person. they don't want to be poisoned like this. it's all your fault. say it! it's all my fault. good. now post it. she thinks it's nothing. she doesn't know. she doesn't know anything. she think's i'm mad at her. i'm not. worry and anger aren't the same things. they're very, very different. she has no idea what it could be. for that matter neither do i. i just hope she's well. i hope she's safe and okay. that's all i want. that's all i ever want. she knows nothing. not matter what it was, she would have told me. given me some type of warning. she would have told me something. anything. i just hope she's okay. that's all i want. her to be okay.....

A/N: sorry.... idk.... 

~Samm😭😭😭