Writings

Fear

A/N: Okay, (for those that will read this) try not to read too much into this. I wrote it close to 2 weeks ago when my, now deceased, dog was sick and acting weird. I was terrified and I didn't know what to do, there was really nothing I could do. So I wrote what I was thinking. It was mostly about fear which is why it's called "Fear". 

QOTC: Too many of us are not living our dreams because we are living our fears. ~Les Brown

~Samm^~^

The fear courses through my veins. I shakes my stomach and hands. It races my heart and worries my bones. I know not what to do. Every part of me screams, "do something". My mind knows there's nothing to do. Nothing to say or do. I can't find a way to calm my wild thoughts. I'm shaken to the bone, the core. I'm terrified of what will happen next. The fear is nothing I can stop, nothing I can change. Even now as all seems calm, I cannot relax my thoughts. All is still and seemingly well but I can't shake these mysterious and fearful thoughts. Nothing seems easy as I sit here in this room. The characters on the screen, I share their fear. I share the sickening feeling in my soul. I've not been this scared in a while. I'm shaking and unsteady. There's nothing more to say. I only wish to help but there's nothing left to do. I hate this feeling. I wish it would leave me be. I'm scared and alone. My thoughts run rampant. I feel almost nauseous. Hands shaking in fear. The sadness fills my soul. I shake and quake and wish it to be gone. The anxiety takes me over. My lungs begin to fail me, just when I need them most. I feel the pain and the sadness. The fear and the regret. I'm petrified where I stand. My legs quiver and refuse to hold me. I cannot calm myself. Nothing really can. I know not what to do. I know that time will heal. I'm not in the mind to say. How I truly feel. For I know not what is true. Relaxation does nothing to my state of mind. I can only leave it be until tomorrow. Even then I won't be going. There's no way I have the strength. If feel pain, fear, sadness, anger, but not a trace of joy. This day has been the strangest. I feel nothing but sadness. The despair that will haunt me for many months to come. My heart it races faster. My pulse it jumps so very fast. I'm so scared and this feeling never leaves. The shaking gets worse. The sad, tense air. I'm trying not to cry. There's nothing we can do. Only make it bearable. Please don't let him cry. His cries hurt my soul.

A/N: Sorry this one's short. But it is real. Sorry if it's depressing. Comments are welcome! Love you!

~Samm^~^