Writings

Time Flies, Shelbs

A/N: ignore my grammar, i can't be bothered.

~Samm😕🙂😩

so it was right around this time a year ago that i met a wonderful person. i can't believe it's been a year already, shelbs. it's insane. I also just realized I don't know when your birthday is. You told me you were a Taurus but I don't know the exact date. So if you're a Taurus, your birthday is between April 20th and May 20th. So somewhere during that time, my little Penguin will be 16. One year closer, honey. I hope you know, I still miss you. Idk if you're ever on here anymore. if you are, hiii! if you are, i hope you see these. if you are, i hope you get to a point where maybe we could talk for just one day or even one minute. idc either way. i hope that you're safe, and happy. i'm still not over the fact that kate and i have been friends for a year. i don't remember the exact day that k and i became friends so i said it could be march 14th. well, that didn't turn out too great... my uh... my mom died that day... so i asked her if we could move it to the 16th. quite a bit has changed since i last talked to you. i really wanna tag you in the but you asked me not to so i won't. i hope you read the stories i post, they're partially for you. i'm working on a new one now. i also got a phone! yay! so yeah there's that. i'm kinda sick rn and yeah. i'm not trying to work a way around your mom but if you ever wanted to talk again, i just... i could give you my number and we could text or something. technically we wouldn't be talking online anymore... idk, i just miss you. i just... i hope that time goes by faster i just wanna talk like we used to. granted rn, i sound like a sick four year old. and i cry way too much right now but it's not been an easy time on me. these past three or so years of my life have been so difficult. first i lost my grandma. then the next year i found out my aunt had cancer, it's treatable, i just can't be around her rn. and then my mom died. like i'm not over here tying to complain, it could be so much worse. i just... i wish it was different. i wish you and kate were here with me for this...whole thing. it sucks. i'm 20 years old and i feel like a scared little kid. i can't even sleep in my own room. i just... i'm not sure about anything at the moment. but i'm holding on to the hope that i'll get to talk to you again. i'm holding onto the hope that i get to meet AR. they're on tour you know? they're surprising schools. they're doing Bully Proof again. i hope they go to your school and you get to meet Blakers. you deserve it. kate's gonna try to go to the show near her, try to meet them. she said that if she gets to she's gonna make Drew call me? i don't... i don't know how i'd react to that. i'd probably start crying. they're doing the east coast in the fall. so that's us, shelbs. i can't even imagine that happening without my heart taking off like a bird with places to be, like a rocket hurtling through space. that boy makes my heart go crazy. i'm still in shock that Drew, Blake, and Jayk all follow me on instagram? like "asdfjkl /).(\" and Drew likes to spam like some of my posts sometimes. isn't he the sweetest? making my heart beat out of my chest. and they're so tall!? like how!?

like look at Blake! look how close his head is to the ceiling! i'm- but like wow! anyway, i think i'm just gonna put in some Blake pictures bc why not?

Smol kitty

Sassy kitten

Tiny child

Child

Smiley darling

Adorable

Those subglasses

Tie dye child

Okay but this on made me swerve lanes so fast...

Squinty kid

And I made him all cutesy.

Okay, I'll stop now. I hope this suffices as a Happy Friendiversary thing for you. I love you Shelbs. I hope I can talk to you soon. I put our song in the media at the top... I really hope you see this... Happy Friendiversary Shelby! I miss you and I hope I can talk to you soon. And bc I'm not sure when it is, Happy Birthday! I hope it's absolutely wonderful bc you deserve it. I love you a ton. I hoper talk to you soon. 

Love you forever,
Your best friend

~Samm😘💖💞💜