A/N: This is gonna be a half-assed explanation of what's going on. So... Just...
~Samm 😭😭
Um so Tuesday, my...my mom died... And it was sudden and it's been a crazy few days. We're not sure what happened. The paramedics believe that her liver shut down. But whatever so it's just been a tough few days. I'm 110% thankful for my support system. My wonderful "sister" Hollie has dropped her whole life to be with us. She spent the night last night and she'll probably be staying here until Monday. That's the funeral. I just...I'm broken okay? If it weren't for Kristle, Kate, Nick, Hollie, and "extended family" I don't think I would be able to get through this. Everyone wants to believe that their parents will live forever but that's just not possible. I uh, I'm honestly barely holding on. It's been hard and it's not gonna get any easier. I'm 20 years old and I feel like I'm 4. I have this ache in my chest where my heart should be... So just bear with me if I don't post things on time or write anything for long periods of time. Life is really hard for all of us rn and my dad wants to take the blame... There's no one to blame. That's a really crap story of what happened but the details are just a hazy blur... Days feel like weeks. And sleep is nearly impossible. There hasn't been a day so far that I have been able to sleep past 10 AM... But that's it. Um Shelby, if you see this, I could really use you right about now. Just something... Okay I'm gonna go... I just need time okay. I love you okay? I'm gonna say that a lot. I love you.
A/N: I'm just broken. Give me time.
~Samm😭💔💚
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