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Journ-Aunt

A/N: Welcome to Thursday.
~Samm🙈💭💚

So today was okay. I updated my story, Do You Want Me. Which is nice. Today was Arrow day and damn was it good! Like rise Inspirational Oliver! Just so amazing! But I'm DC trash first class so... I'm a nerd so you're gonna have to get used to me being one. Anyway so life was okay today. A little boring but whatever.

The reason it was boring is bc I couldn't talk to my best friend. And I won't be able to tomorrow. But I'll have to get used to it bc my parents want my brother and I to get jobs. 😑 I really don't wanna do that bc I worry about K a lot. Like a lot. More than I should. But I have reason to. Sometimes.  Anyway so like it wasn't a horrible day but it was uneventful.

If you don't know, you're gonna get schooled on me right now. So when I was about 8 my grandpa on my dad's side was diagnosed with cancer. It was devastating. Well, it was in his brain and he had to do Chemo. Well that made him sick a lot. And Idk why, but I have this issue with vomit. It's psychological. It's something I need to work on. Well, rewind like 9 years. My grandpa on my mom's side had cancer too. It started in his bladder. He didn't want to see a doctor so he'd always be magically better the day after Gram suggested it. Blah blah. By the time they found it, there wasn't much they could really do. They did what they could and then he just kinda gave up. He was diagnosed in December and by May he was gone. The following December, I was born. I never got to meet him so that always messed me up. Anyway, back to the real topic. My dad's dad had the same thing. Didn't go to the doctor, not much they could do, gave up, diagnosed in December gone by May. They were like mirrors but whatever.

So my dad's best friend, was like a second dad to me. He was in my life as much as my own dad was. Well, he had cancer too and he was able to fight it for 10 years. He was the strongest man I've ever known. During  my junior year of high school, he died while I was at his house. That haunts me to this day. So it's safe to say that I don't have a good track record with cancer. Here's the real point, my aunt has cancer. Isn't that just the kicker!? No. Here's the kicker: bc of my experience with cancer in the past, I can't physically be around her. It sets me into full blown panic mode. The sick thing about it all is that she found out on my birthday. So she's been going through Chemo yeah? So she had to go today and my dad had to take her. Now, I know want you're thinking. "Did you have to go too?" The answer is no. And even if I did, I wouldn't. It's not that I don't love my aunt, I do. With all my heart. But I can't be near her. It's bad for my mental health. It makes me lose mind. So it's breaking me apart that I can't be near her. So basically that happened today.

Oh! I wrote some more for DYWM. I even started  new chapter! Whoo! I'm proud. It's still not  done yet. I have 31 chapters and it's not done. The main part of the plot isn't even in full effect yet. And there's gonna be a huge bombshell about to happen. I'm not saying anything. And K, if you end up reading this, I'm not gonna tell even you. You'll have to wait to read it in real time. My brother knows but that's only bc he doesn't care about the story. Speaking of him, he's writing something for just the two of us.

Ooh! Drew liked more of my posts. Here they are. Also, feel free to follow me on Insta if you want....

So that made my day. He also did  live thing on Instagram. It wasn't for a long time but it was cute. Like him. 😍🙈💭💚  He played this song he wrote called "King Henry". It's about exactly what you think it is. Is it bad that I know every word of it? Oops? I guess...? So like yeah. I'm really still excited for Saturday. Even if it means I have to go to bed early on Friday and get up before 10 on Saturday. It'll be worth it though. More on that later. I think I'm gonna go now. It's after 6 in the morning.

A/N: That's all for today kiddos. Love you all. Comment:💚 If you think Drew could possibly like me. Comment:💭 If you hope he does for my own sanity. Comment:😍 If you think Drew and I would be cute together. Comment:🙈 If you think I'm cringy. And if you do all that, you get a cookie. Actually here's one anyway for reading this. You'll get another if you play the comment game. 🍪
~Samm🙈💭💚