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What Feels Natural

Virginie's Point Of View

December 6th

After dinner, we headed to the living room to watch some telly. We scanned the channels, but nothing was really interesting. We stumbled upon PBS and I noticed Ian McKellen, so I made Harry stop and look at the info on what's playing. It was a Shakespeare special at the Globe in London presenting a medley of his sonnets in songs and acts of his famous plays for Prince Charles. Judi Dench and Benedict Cumberbatch were in it too and we decided to watch that instead of a movie.

I snuggled to Harry's side and tangled my legs with his. It felt so good and natural. I can't believe we were together not even three months and we got to a level of comfort together I barely have with Matt after being together for a year and a half. I must admit, Matt is not very the affectionate type, so we never get to act like this.

What's different with Harry this time is that we get to know each other totally differently than we did before. Not only have we grown, but it's past the physical attraction. He saw me at times more vulnerable than my own mother. He knows sides of me I only kept for myself. He makes me feel truly at ease to share my demons with him. What I admire the most, it's that he welcomes them and tries to deal with them with me. They didn't scare him away. It even seemed to have made him feel even more deeply for me. He is my pillar in all of this. He is the one I need the most and I'm very grateful to have him.

We have a connection so strong, that only his presence is making me weak and incredibly strong at the same time, through every kiss, every touch and every look. It's more than just the sex now. Even though, it was great, I find comfort with him in other ways than just sex. I find it in his scent. The natural and delightful way he reminds me of home, mixed with his strong spiced cologne and the sweet smell of his green apple shampoo that lingers on his clothes, on his skin, in his hair. There are so many comforting things about him, like the way he holds me. His strong, yet, delicate embrace, the rhythm of our chest breathing against each other. His hands wrapping my shoulders in a safe, protective and loving hug. He always radiates his genuine love for me and only now do I notice it.

He loves me.

I think about what he told me earlier. Just before he confessed his love. He talked about keeping away from me because of Liam. What does Liam have to do with this? Every scenario runs through my mind. I don't watch the show now, I'm too focused on finding an explanation.

The last time we spent time together, it was at my birthday, because I don't count our weird encounter at the office. It was awkward but nice to see him again after all this time. Then, I would never have guessed I would be throwing myself again in his arms, and it gets me a bit disappointed in myself thinking how I'm hurting Matt right now. He doesn't deserve any of this, but I can't help my feelings towards Harry.

I stop every thought involving Matt from coming to my mind, because I don't want to deal with this now. It makes me so anxious, I can't be thinking about that now. I'll think about what I need to do in a few days, when I can ask my family for guidance. For right now, I focus back on my initial thoughts. Liam. What the hell did he say to Harry?

I remember Liam escorting Harry out of the house after he shouted at me. What did he say to me when he came back? We celebrated his engagement and his pregnancy, but everything happened so quickly, I can't seem to recall what happened... Did he- I think I remember... I think he told me Harry finally told him the truth about why he was there... What happened?

I debate inside of me whether or not to ask Harry about it. I guess he told me first, when he involved Liam in his confession earlier. Curiosity is eating me up, I have no choice.