Infinity | Sequel to Right Now |

I Love You

Virginie's Point of View

December 24th

Harry's eyes darts mine with both pure desire and surprise. His mouth drops open a second and he closes it quickly.  I can see his thought running through his eyes at a million miles an hour.  What could he be thinking about?  Doesn't he want me?

"What?"  He finally says, his brows suddenly getting high on his forehead.

"I am not afraid anymore, Harry.  I want this.  I want you.  All of you." I whisper, my eyes deep into his as my hands ran on his chest to caress his skin a few times before my palms cup each side of his neck. 

I straighten myself on the counter, pressing my chest to his, loving the electric contact between my nipples and his.  I get my head near his, feeling every of his breaths caress my skin.

"Are you sure?"  He whispers back against my lips, caring about me like the gorgeous soul he is.

"I have never been more sure in my life.  I love you, Harry.  I truly do and I should never have doubted you." I let out and quickly realise I shouldn't have said that.

By bringing back our issues, it killed the mood.  It isn't steamy like it was, it's heartfelt and deep as every doubt and emotion we felt since we parted comes back into our minds.  He looks at me differently now.  The spark that was burning into his eyes faded to leave all the place to sadness.  It pains me to see that, but I guess we need to talk about it one way or another.

He takes a deep breath and sighs loudly, looking down and away from my eyes.

"The thing is, Gyns..."  He sighs again, still not looking at me as I try my best to stay calm and patient, but nerves are eating my loins.  "I know you love me and I understand why you made the choice you made..."

"What choice?"  I frown, looking the same way he does, hoping he would finally stare back into my eyes so I can see how he feels.

"Matt.  I get it and, honestly, it is the best choice to make for you.  I spent the last few days thinking, being angry and lost.  I had the accident and it made me see things differently.  There's a part of me that thought that I would fight to have you back, make you realise the mistake you made, but another part of me thought you had made the better decision."  He slowly says followed by another sigh.

"No!  Why?"  I step back and frown at him.  Why would he think like that?!

"Because you know how your life is going to be.  You have planned everything and I can't offer you that.  The only thing I can promise you is to love you.  I don't know when I'll be back with the boys.  I have to leave the country to promote the song, make appearances, finish the album, release it and that's for the next couple of months.  After that, I don't know.  Do I want to continue acting?  Will it be the time to come back to the boys?  I am under contract to make three solo albums with Columbia.  My career is all over the map when all you want is to settle down and I-"

"Stop it!"  I let out and force his head to look at me, stoping this enumeration of complete nonsense.  "Look at me, Harry.  Matt isn't who I want and it took me that to realise that yes I did have plans for my life and I was happy with them, but the man in my life wouldn't have made me happy down the line, not when I know what it's like to be with you."