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True Colours

Virginie's Point Of View

December 5th

We arrived an hour early from the time of our tee off. It's literally the perfect weather for a golf game. There is no wind and the sun is just enough warm to make it tolerable to spend about four hours driving balls on the courses.

I didn't really sleep better than any of the days before, so I pushed myself to follow Harry to his game without complaining about staying home. I'm really trying to get through this, but it's not just a scar that needs to heal, it's the memories haunting me. Changing my mind is the best option and I remind myself I won't be alone. I have my wonderful friend always by my side and I'm going to be meeting his girlfriend today...

Just thinking about it brings my mood down. Who is she? I don't really speak at all, maybe from the nerves, but I let Harry handle me the way he wants and, for now, he wants to buy me some clothes at the pro shop. I decline politely, but I really stand out. I'm not appropriate at all on this high ranked golf course.

Although I have golf clothes at home, I didn't bring them with me for obvious reasons. So, with a pair of shoes, a hat, a polo and shorts later, I get all dressed and join Harry for a coffee and a croissant before heading to the field.

While I wonder why is Jeff picking up Glenne instead of Harry, I activate my bitch mode and decide to not care, it's better this way. I stop myself, thinking how bad I am and how sorry I feel for being that way towards her, but I don't really stop anyway.

We get a kart and set Harry's clubs on it. He drives us to the parking and jokes around with it, spinning fast in the parking or just driving really slowly to crazy fast right after. It really makes me laugh and I don't care about anyone else around. I haven't heard him laugh that way in a long time.

We meet Jeff in no time at his car and I get instantly very nervous. Harry immediately goes to open Glenne's door and I get blinded by a gorgeous tall woman. I feel, now, insanely small in my shoes. She is gorgeous and, I mean, look at me... I'm nobody, nothing, not nearly as good looking as her.

"Oh my God! You must be Gynie! How are you?" She walks right passed Harry to greet me, looking elegant with the most beautiful and whitest of smiles.

Oh no! She's nice too!

"I'm well, thank you. How are you? It's a pleasure to meet you Glenne." I reply, incredibly intimidated by her elegance and, overall, her presence.

"I'm great. It's wonderful to meet you at last. I've heard so much about you. Your accent is so adorable." She smiles at me and I look at Harry.

I don't get why he would tell his girlfriend about me. And what did he tell her? I get instantly nervous, as if I wasn't enough already.

I simply smile at her in return and she automatically drifts her attention to her beloved. Which annoys me and it isn't supposed to be.

"Harry? Would you mind coming with me to get a kart?" She asks him, so I look at him.

Don't leave me!

"Of course, love. I'll be right back Gyns." He says and smiles back at her, taking her hand a moment to leave it as quickly and circle her waist.

My heart starts beating loudly in my chest and it isn't from excitation, it's from pain. He replaced me. It hurts. But I realise I have Matt. I always had Matt. I don't know what happened in my head to let myself feel towards Harry. I shouldn't be feeling any of this at all. I wasn't, every time I met him before, even if I was with Matt. What has changed?

Everything has changed. I could never be the person I once was. Harry built me back up and I guess, since I lost all hope for myself, I hung on tight to the only tiny bit Harry gave me, leading to make me feel like I do now. It's the only explanation.