Infinity | Sequel to Right Now |

Emails (pt. II)

To: harolds1994

From: virginie.dulude

Object: Wonderful things

Dear Diary,

Today is a new day. Yesterday, I let sadness overtake me, mostly nostalgia, and I didn't plan on letting it happen today.

I woke up very early and I decided to head to H's gym downstairs to train and get all that negativity outside of me. I took my place on the still bike and cycled for a long while, getting lost into my own thoughts, letting the pain get to my thighs. I welcomed it. It even fuelled me to go even faster. I, then, switched to lift some weights and I really pushed myself. I don't know what it was about the morning's training, but I was strong. I was in pain, but I pushed through it, just like Harry taught me how. In the gym this morning, I really proved myself how much of a fighter I am. It felt immensely great and empowering to not feel scared and, even, at ease into my own body and into my own mind.

I am purely speculating, I don't want to jinx anything, but I think everything I did was right and that's the way I was supposed to do it. Being apart from the man I love is very hard, but it is essentially what drove me to work harder on myself. I think that if nothing would have change, I would have relayed too much on him. Now, I feel strong on my two feet and I am getting better at being the strong woman he deserves to have, but I am principally doing this for me. That's what is so wonderful about this.

I realised that he always talked about showing me what I deserve and telling me I deserved more, but how unfair was it of me to think that lowly of myself? What about what he deserves? He deserves the world and I wasn't treating him right. He deserves to be loved by the purest and the kindest of heart. He deserves somebody that will think about him before herself, someone who's as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside. He deserves to be cherished and deserves someone who will make him smile and laugh everyday. And knowing all that, if he sees me fit and can find a way to forgive me, it would be, yet again, the most gratifying honour I could ever receive to be worthy of him and his love.

Anyway! After we got delivered our Christmas tree, I brought my parents to visit the City today. Eh boy! They haven't changed the slightest bit. Dad was being extra curious about every little detail and Mom just wanted to shop little souvenirs.  It was both excruciating and hilarious.  With them, it was like I was visiting London for the first time.  We took the tubes, something that was hard for my parents to get and truly understand, and we went back to Westminster to see Big Ben from up close.  We walked on the bridge and we got tickets for the London Eye, Sea Life and Madame Tussaud.  I must admit it, I enjoyed being a simple tourist for the day.  Mom actually got me excited to go to the wax museum.  Who knows, maybe I could get lucky and have my picture taken with One Direction.  Ha ha!

My parents completely adored being in the London Eye.  We got lucky to have such a beautiful sunny day, something that is very rare for this city AND this time of year.  We had a fantastic view.  I, then, promised I would take Mom to eat an English fish and chips and it was honestly the most disgusting thing I have ever tasted.  Dad was glad and, literally, bragged about buying a hot dog instead and not listening to Mom's complaints of not embracing the traditional local food. Mom got very surprised that the fries are called chips here. Like I said, a small little detail amazes them.

We got lucky that the waiting line wasn't that long, we went to Sea Life immediately after. Dad was complaining about the purpose of going to an aquarium. "The fish are all the same everywhere." I think he said, before getting an interest in the penguins. I'm rolling my eyes at the memory.