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Relief

Virginie's Point of View

December 21st

After making sure Cheryl was alright, too many times, Liam practically forced me out of the house to get my parents at the airport. I burrowed one of his car once again, which he was more than happy to let me.  I am so eternally grateful for the support him and Cheryl have given me the past few days.  I intend to repay them the best way I can once my parents are gone and I move back in Liam's house.  I hope it won't be for long.  I was shocked the other day when I went to shop with Liam.  I quickly checked my bank account to make a budget for gifts and I found a hell of a lot more money than there should have been.  The only reasonable explanation was the rights of the song.  It made me remember Harry told me most of the money will come once the song is it, but I didn't expect this much this soon.  I could finally look for a place on my own.

Even though I love this being provided to me, like it is with Liam and like it was with Matt, I don't want to abuse the goodwill of others.  It's about time I start my life on my own and not depend of anyone and anything else.  I think I have relayed on too many people in my life, Harry in particular.  Especially Harry...

Thinking about him makes my heart ache with pain, so I need to think about something else.  My parents!  Why not.  What will we do?  Where will we go and what will we visit?  I am sure they will be very tired of their long journey and maybe want to rest for the rest of the day.  Maybe I can take them only for a drive on the roads of Hampstead and we can look at the houses and the decorations.  I think they would like that and it would be a very nice and simple thing to do as a family to introduce them to the English lands. 

I get to Heathrow after being stuck in traffic.  It makes me think of Matt and how he was late to pick me up because of it a few months ago when I moved here.  I knew it would be a problem so I planned carefully. 

That is something I used to do a lot, planning.  It seems like forever since the last time I planned something.  It was like that with Matt, but since Harry got back into my life, every plan I ever made was out the door and so was my habit.  Now, it seems to have found me again.  I guess everything I have experienced makes me want to balance everything.  I don't want to be the control freak I once was, I want to be able to let go, like Harry taught me to do, to relax and let go.  Which are are two things I can't do right now, because I can't seem to find a parking and my parents have landed thirty minutes ago.

I am waiting for them at the arrival and I remember when I got through the customs, here, the first time, more than two years ago.  I was a nervous wreck.  I was panicking at anything.  I was so small in a very big city.  I was carrying my dreams with me and I knew my life would change, but never the way it did.  I feel extremely blessed and grateful to have experienced all these adventures.  Life is not over, like I thought otherwise not so long ago, and I have a lot more room for many more adventures to come.  I start my life all over with a new me.  Living with Liam has cleaned myself.  I live everyday for myself, I work on my body, trying to be healthy, and I work on my mind, trying to better understand myself.  Taking care of Cheryl is really showing me what my real purpose is, a family.  There is nothing more gratifying than feeling the progress I make in only a few days. 

After another half an hour of waiting for my parents at the arrivals, I finally see them with the largest and happiest grins on their faces.  That is simply the best cure for my wounded heart.  Oh and maybe the big hug they give me too.  The joy inside of me is everything I needed.  It really puts in perspective how big family means to me.