Infinity | Sequel to Right Now |

Critical

Song for this chapter:
- Critical by Nick Jonas

Virginie's Point Of View

December 17th

"You have no idea how nice it is to have company in this big house. Liam is just always gone, you know. Last night was a dream. You give the best feet massages in the world, but don't tell Liam, he will never do it again if you do." Cheryl smiles at me, eating her waffles with my home made strawberry whipped cream.

"Your secret is safe with me. Thank you again for letting me stay here and letting me take care of you." I tell her, walking in my PJs to the sink to wash my dishes.

"Believe me when I say it's my pleasure, truly. Stay here as long as you want. Liam wants you to feel very welcome to come to us when you need anything."

"You are already doing a lot."

"I hope he'll wake up soon, because I am eating all of your waffles. It's delicious. Soon, we will force you to stay if you keep on being that great to us."

I walk back to the table and I look at her smile at me. I love her glow. She is sparkling with happiness and that is the most wonderful thing I could witness. I know I haven't been a great friend to Liam and I want to make up for it. I want to be there for them. I really do. Maternity has always been my greatest wish, so helping her through her last weeks would make me feel very happy and closer to the life I wish to have.

Liam join us and we talk about how fun last night was. I spent the whole day with them. We watched a movie as I gave them back rubs and we listened to music as we played board games. It was honestly the simplest day in the world and it was perfect to calm me down from the panic attack I had when I came to Matt's house.

The taxi parked and I looked blankly at the house, fearing to get out. I wasn't strong anymore. I just had lost my pillar, the man I love, to make things right. Harry was the biggest sacrifice I had to make in order to get things straight with Matt and then move on with my life with whoever it would be. I got scared and weak and it seems like all I have been working on with Harry, to get myself stronger, didn't work. I know Harry makes me stronger, but I honestly thought I still would be without him.

It took me a while, sitting in the back of the taxi to calm myself down. My emotions were all over the place from the call I had just ended with H. I just couldn't face Matt at all. I needed a safe haven and I knew Liam would welcome me with open arms, as he did.

I am not one to take advantage of the situation, so I want to deal with my issues today and get my mind straight on what I want to move forward and out of my friend's house. I take Liam apart after breakfast and tell him all my intentions. I want to make things right, that's all I want. I need to be truthful with Matt, but I don't want to force it if nothing is there to fight for anymore.

Liam lends me one of his cars to drive to Matt's, he encouraged me to do the right thing for me and to be selfish in this decision to not hurt more people like I already have done.

On the drive there, my thoughts are haunted by Harry and Matt. I can't waste he relationship I had with Matt, I need to see if it was just the circumstances that drove me into H's arms or if I really do love Harry more. I really don't know what to expect. He didn't call me after all. Maybe he didn't miss me at all. I need a plan. I had one before I left Canada, but now it can't just stay the same.

Once I am at the house, the home that has been mine for longer than H's house was, I get suddenly very nervous. I don't know how to act. Do I knock? Do I use my key? Do I just come in like nothing has changed? As far as everyone knows, I was in Manchester and I am coming back to Matt as if nothing happened. So I take a deep breath and turn the knob of the unlocked door with shaky hands, I get inside the house. The smell of the fresh brewed coffee welcomes me, it's as if I never have left. Everything is the same. I can presume that Sophie is in the kitchen and her husband is reading the paper at the counter like a typical Sunday morning. Cindy might be at Niall's or still sleeping, either way, she is in bed. Matt might be awake or still sleeping. He is quite the early bird, but with his job on set, he always had late shift, so he kind of broke that habit. I have no clue, really if he is up or not, so I walk further in the house very silently and notice both their doors closed.