Infinity | Sequel to Right Now |

Making It Right

Virginie's Point of View

December 17th

"I'm sorry for the way I acted earlier. I was mean, but now I get it. You know I was just trying to protect my brother." Cindy says as she brings one of the box with all of my belongings to Liam's car.

"I know and I respect that. I love Matt, I truly do. I really don't want anyone to doubt that, but it just seems like we are not meant to be after all... I was so scared that if something turned out wrong I would lose the both of you forever." I join her to the booth and close it to be on my way.

"You could never, but it will take time. To be honest, I reacted that harshly because I knew it would be inevitable someday. I just didn't want to see my brother hurt." She leans her weight on the car, getting comfortable, both of her arms crossed on her chest.

"He should have told me sooner that he didn't want kids. It's not something you hide on purpose. That hurts me a lot. We've discussed it together before, you and I, that you didn't want children, so, from a best friend's point of view, I completely understand his choice, but, from a girlfriend's point of view, I feel betrayed. It's like I don't even realise it's over."

"Maybe I don't see it as such because I knew... But I understand how big of a deal it is to you. It was a big deal to Niall too when I told him, that's why we are seeing each other, but we are not taking the next step."

"If I didn't love you that much, I would be mad you didn't tell me anything."

"I will consider myself glad then. Don't forget us." She says as she takes my body into her arms.

"Never. You will both stay my best friends. I just need a little time to get over the fact that every plan I made for my life is now ruined. If you look for me, you'll probably find me in front of Titanic with loads of Skittles." I say to her ear as she holds me even tighter to her chest.

"I know my brother will probably drown his sorrows in work now, as if he wasn't working enough already."

"Please take care of him. I will try to keep in touch, maybe when the news will have sunk in." I leave her embrace and sigh deeply.

I say my farewells, get inside the car and look quickly at all my belongings on the backseats. It's over. We are over. Matt and I are no more a couple.

I can't believe I am saying goodbye to the life I had for four months, living in this gorgeous house with a marvellous family. It was hard having Matt look at me getting all of my clothes out of the wardrobe. It feels like it was some kind of funeral. I was packing my stuff and it just made me realise how I have changed since then. I don't wear the same clothes. I don't look like the woman in all of those pictures. My hair is not only way shorter, but I am not as innocent anymore. I feared to be touched by Matt a bit, his touch feeling so foreign and it quite confused me. But I know I loved this man incredibly, I still do, but it's different now. His love was home for so long, I didn't need much time to adjust myself and trust him. I wanted to feel one last time the kind of love we had by offering him myself entirely. I didn't fear him anymore, it felt natural, but definitely not like things were before. All that, for one big, major and very important reason.

I don't regret any of my decisions, but feeling so physically and psychologically distant from Matt today, makes me grieve our love a little more easily. It still hurts because I'm saying goodbye to everything I have ever planned and everything I have known for months to start completely over again. Things can never be the same, but I know now I made a huge mistake. I can't believe how conflicted I was hours ago and now I have never been more sure Harry has always been the one for me. I can't explain what went on in my mind. Maybe him erasing all the calls Matt did on my phone was a blessing. It got him back in my life, even if it was only for a couple of days, before I screwed up our entire relationship. I blamed him for my insecurities and I should never have done that.