My Fear (Eric Divergent Fanfic)

Chapter 36

*three weeks later*

Eric and I have been seeing a lot more than I expected of each other, but it was only out of the courtesy of our children. We both would call each other up so the other could get some sleep that we both desperately needed.

Eric had the day off today so he decided to spend it with me and the kids.

"Hey." Eric arrives and he looks like he didn't get a wink of sleep the night before. He barely looks put together, compared to how he always looks he looks like a disaster.

"I thought for sure you'd look well rested considering you were kid-less last night. You doing okay?" I say concerned.

"Yep." He mumbles and then goes straight for the kids.

"I know you're lying to me," I cross my arms. "What happened?"

"Oh, am I?" He rolls his eyes.

"Yes, Eric. If there's one thing I can tell in this world is when someone is lying to me. Spill."

"I don't want to talk about it or think about it. That's why I took off today." He hisses.

"Wow, this is bad." I get up off the couch and walk over to him, "Eric," I put my hand on his forearm.

He shrugs off my hand. "Don't touch me."

I take a step back and look at him. I realize whatever he's moping about is serious. "Who's this about? Is this about me?" I put my hand on my chest.

"Of course you'd go straight to thinking it'd be about you. Typical." He huffs. "No, it's not about you."

"Then why are you pushing me away?" I look at the hurt in his eyes.

"Don't make me tell you. I'm not ready to talk about this. Just leave me alone." His voice cracks slightly.

"Fine," I give him his space and pick up Emery, it's time for his feeding. I watch Eric closely though, if he's going to mope and act like this in front of the kids, I am going to keep my eye on him. "You don't have to tell me anything you don't want too." I say as I sit on the couch and begin to breastfeed.

"She broke up with me." It comes out as a whisper as if he can't believe it himself.

I throw a mental party in my mind. On the outside I give him a sad look but I don't pity him. "It'll be okay," I say softly.

"I just don't understand. Everything was going great, even better than great, then all the sudden out of nowhere she- she just starts acting weird and ends it."

"Maybe she didn't feel the same way. Maybe she didn't feel that things we're more than great." I shrug my shoulders.

"No. It wasn't that." He growls and gives me a dirty look.

My eyes leave his and I look at Emery. "Maybe she couldn't handle sharing you?" now I'm just naming things.

"I've gone through every plausible reason in my head and I realized there wasn't any."

"There had to be a reason Eric, something she might not of told you, how she felt. I don't know."

"I don't either, but I wish I did..." He looks down sadly.

I want to tell him everything will be okay, and things happen for a reason. I also want to be sad for Eric, but I don't, I don't feel anything sad for him. Only happy. I don't bother saying anything else.

"I need a distraction." He says.

Clueless I say, "Ean's in his room, maybe he can cheer you up."