My Fear (Eric Divergent Fanfic)

Chapter 15

I take the train and just sit, I don't get off anywhere I just feel the cool breeze and listen to sound of the tracks clicking. I don't understand how Eric could do this to me, why he would do this me. Of course I'm thankful I'm not Factionless but some one is because I was cheated in here and they were cheated out. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about who I knocked out that rightfully deserves to be in here. I think it was an act of cowardice to cheat me into this faction. I think about Ean and how much I love him how if I didn't pass I could be having Ean as a Factionless baby. This is the better choice and right for not only my life but his. I can't help but be furious at Eric as if he can hold it against me, like if I do something Dauntless he'll just be like well you didn't technically get in. I'm like a fake member of this faction.

I wonder how Candor would be, I could be with my mother and father, my older sister Elizabeth and my younger sister Emma. I would take the truth serum and then be a member, no cuts. Then I start to remember how much I hate Candor.

I spend so much of time on the train that when I look out the sun is rising, a new day. I wait for the train to get off at Dauntless. I jump off. In the distance I see the wall guards wishing I could be one of them. I don't want this life I don't want to be I intelligence. I head back to the apartment, I open the door and it's chaotic. I hear Ean screaming along with Eric and Peter.

"You pick him up!" Eric yells.

"No! You're his father! You do it!"

"No way! I can't touch him! I'll break him, Peter!"

"Well, someone has to change his diaper!"

"Yeah, you!"

"Awe, come on, man! He's your son!"

"I can't touch him." Eric crosses his arms.

"Yes." Peter crosses his arms in response.

"No."

"Yes."

"No."

I walk in between them and pick up the baby who instantly stops crying. The boys look at me shocked, especially Eric. I set Ean down and grab a fresh diaper and begin to change him.

"You guys haven't changed him all night," I say in a calm matter but the sound of my voice is rough and angry. I don't look up at them, I just focus on Ean.

"I can't touch him. He'll break." Eric gruffed.

"This is getting old Eric," I snap at him. "You're not going to hurt him. For god sake just pick him up and do your job as a father!" Ean starts to whine.

"I will do my job. Once he's older and less breakable." Eric stands his ground.

"I understand that he's smaller than your own bicep, but I can't do this alone. And Peter seems to be no help," I give him an angry glare. "I leave for one night and I come back to this place a mess and Ean looks and smells disgusting. Was he even fed?"

"He was fed. I don't really need to pick him up or touch him for that."

"Father of the year award goes to Eric for feeding our son without actually touching him and giving him any affection." I say completely on edge.

"Are you feeling ill? I think you should go lay down." Eric suggested, not really a suggestion. He turned to Peter, "I think you should go. Elena and I are going to get some rest. Report back tomorrow."

Peter nodded and headed out.

"What the hell do you think you're doing treating me with such disrespect? When you left did you realize you really wanted to be factionless or something? All I did was tell you I helped you out and of course you bitch about that and then you come home and bitch about my fathering." Eric angrily glared.