Campus Nerd To Campus Queen (Completed)

Chapter 17

I haven't had the chance to do my school works because of what I learned. Kahit walang sabihin si ate na pangalan kilala ko na kung sino ang tinutukoy niya.

Gumulong ulit ako sa kama at ginulo ang buhok ko. Naiinis ako hindi dahil sa nalaman ko kundi dahil sa sarili ko. Akala ko kung sakaling dumating ang araw na ganito ay hindi na ako maaapektuhan. Three years had passed already. Dapat wala na iyon para sakin!

But... do I deserve to forget it, though? Isn't it a selfish move for me? Nasasaktan pa rin yung kapatid ko dahil sa nangyaring 'yon. It left a big scar on her and I know she's questioning herself if she isn't enough. Or what did she do wrong to replace her like that. And I was such a stupid selfish bitch who let her boyfriend hit on me despite of being a mere fourteen year old girl. I was supposed to be focusing on my studies!

Kung para sakin ay may epekto iyon, paano pa sa kapatid ko? I don't want to know if she's starting to cry her heart out again because of that guy.

Saglit na nawala ako sa pag-iisip tungkol doon nang tumunog ang cellphone ko. My mood immediately changed when I saw who's calling. I even cleared my throat to sound fine.

"Hello?" Kinagat ko ang ibabang labi ko.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing. Just... thinking about some things. Bakit ka napatawag?"

I heard him chuckle. I think my heart flipped because of his laugh. Oh, no. This is not good.

"Why do you always ask that? Can't I just call you because I want to talk to you? Do I always need a reason when I'm calling you?"

Hindi naman sa gano'n. I didn't mean it that way.

"Nakakapanibago lang kasi. Sanay akong hindi na tayo nag-uusap."

"I will never go back to those days again."

"Why?"

"Weeks without you felt like something's missing inside me. Kung kaya mo ang gano'n, ako hindi. Gusto kita laging kausap, Kylie."

Our conversation took hours to the point I forgot about what my sister told me awhile ago. Parang refresh button si Blake para sakin dahil nawala sa isip ko ang nalaman ko kanina.

"Inaantok na ako..." sambit ko habang kinukusot ang mga mata ko.

Hinahatak na ako ng antok pero nang maalalang hindi pa pala ako kumakain ng hapunan ay bahagyang nawala iyon. Hindi ako sanay na hindi kumakain sa gabi.

"You should sleep, then,"

"Ikaw? Hindi ka pa inaantok?" We've been talking for hours already. Ako nga inaantok na samantalang ako yung halos nagk-kwento saming dalawa. Paano pa kaya siya na nakikinig lang? Hindi ba mas nakakaantok 'yon?

"Not yet. Sleep, Ky. We'll see each other tomorrow."

Hindi ko na nagawang sumagot pa. Ang tanging naalala ko lang ay nakatulugan ko na siya. Chineck ko ang cellphone ko nang mag-umaga na para malaman kung anong oras namatay ang tawag. But all I saw was it's black screen. Nadeadbat pala ako.

I did my morning routine. After wearing my school uniform, I grabbed my things before storming out the room. Nasa kalagitnaan ako ng pag kain nang may maalala ako.

"Shoot!"

"For three?" Biglang sulpot ni Kuya mula sa entrance ng kitchen. Nilapag niya ang backpack niya sa upuan bago dumiretso sa mga counter.

"I forgot to do my school works!"

"Bakit? Ano bang pinagkaabalahan mo kagabi at hindi mo nagawa 'yan?"