A Girl in a Forgetful World

I Hope (For Us)

I never thought 

I would find love this good.

I never thought that

You could take my bad days, 

Clear the stormy sky,

And make the sun come out

All with one smile.

I never thought

You would love me.

I never thought

Anyone would love me.

Yet,

Here we are, 

Holding hands

And saying I love you

Like we've known each other for a thousand years. 

I hope,

I hope and pray and cry

For us.

No one's first true love has lasted

Forever. 

There are no examples,

No evidence

No trust

That your first love with last forever.

That fact breaks my heart a little bit

Every day.

I don't want us to end

But how can we last forever?

I can't stand thinking about losing you

To another girl that's 

Prettier,

Funnier,

Happier,

More popular

Than me.

I think about that everyday too.

Because out of all of them

Oh, darling, 

There sure are a lot of them...

You picked me.

Plain,

Boring 

Me.

I hope 

For us,

That one day

I can put a ring on your finger

And say I do.

I hope,

With every single shattered piece of me

That we last forever. 

But how can we?

Am I just spiraling so deeply into love

That I see only you as my one and only?

That I see you as my Prince Charming?

I hope you don't become my 

Prince Harming.

I can't bear to think about...

The day we might split up.

I cry too much already over when you are sad, 

Even if it's not because of me.

I love you more than I ever thought I could.

I don't think I could bear the heartbreak,

Not even writing could fix it.

I can't lose you, 

Or rather,

I don't want to. 

I would rather die

Than never talk to you again.

I hope,

I hope so hard it hurts,

That I can spend the rest of my life with you.

Because to me,

You are my 'meant to be'.

I love you...

And I hope you hope for us

Too.