I had a dream
Last night,
And you were there.
We were together on a playground,
And you were pushing me on the swings.
We were laughing,
We were smiling,
And we were happy;
Something that we've never been,
And I'm afraid never will be.
In my dream,
We were sitting at the kitchen table
Doing math homework.
You were helping me learn
How to do geometry.
You were encouraging me
Every step of the way.
If only it was like that outside of my dreams.
In my dream,
You told me I looked beautiful
In my graduation gown,
As I walked with my diploma
From an elite school
You always told me I would get accepted to.
In my dream,
You were at my wedding,
Giving me away to a man
You said didn't deserve me.
We were dancing together,
Swaying in the silk and lace.
We were happy then, too...
Dreams are much happier places.
In my dream,
You held me as I cried
Over the loss of my grandmother.
You told me everything would be alright,
And that I would be safe
In your arms.
In my dream,
You were there-
Not just present but...
There--
There to experience my life,
There to encourage me,
There to be with me.
But really,
You're thousands of miles away.
You'll never read this
Because I'm not a good writer.
You'll never push me on a swingset
Because when you left,
I was barely able to walk on my own.
You'll never laugh with me
Because you love to criticize me.
You'll never come to my college graduation
Because,
According to you,
I'm not smart enough to go to the school of my dreams.
You'll never give me away at my wedding
Because you won't be invited.
You didn't hold me as I cried
Because the main reason I cry
Is you.
My dream of you
Is a much better image
Than the real you.
I woke up
And found myself missing you...
Except,
It wasn't you.
It was the dad of my dreams.
I miss you,
Dad.
I miss the dad you could have been.
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A Girl in a Forgetful World
PoetryThis is a collection of all the poetry I have written. Some sadness, some happiness, and a concotion of both. Poetry is my way to vent and let my emotions flow freely. Thanks for checking it out, and I really hope you enjoy what you find! And please...