It seems almost like
I've been living in a daze.
The fog of memories
Are flooding my brain
Of how I used to love you.
He and I used to go on long car drives,
Just me and him
And the setting sun.
She and I used to
Play tennis against each other,
Laughing at how badly we hit.
He and I would kiss goodnight,
And say I love you in the morning.
That's how I used to love him,
But now that love is gone.
I used to love her by
Picking her up when she fell,
Letting her cry in my arms
No matter how many tears there were
To shed.
I'd hug him tightly
When he told me a secret
He had never told anyone.
I'd smooth his hair
When we went upside down
In that carnival ride.
That's how I used to love him.
I thought she would be
My friend for life,
But it was mangled with an unwanted touch,
Unwanted affection,
And forced attention.
I brushed it off,
Pretending nothing had happened...
But I knew exactly what was happening;
She wanted me,
And I didn't want her,
Not in that way.
I guess that's how she used to love me.
I thought that maybe
He was someone who could heal me.
He did.
Until he broke me.
I wasn't good enough for him,
And no matter how hard
He tries to win me back,
I can't get over
How his eyes don't sparkle like they used to...
I can't get over how he's so different.
He used to hug me,
He would text me hearts
And make me laugh when I was crying.
He used to listen to me
As I discussed the latest pain
Of someone who hurt me.
He would wipe away the tears
With his thumb
And kiss me softly.
That's how he used to love me.
To them, I say;
Do you remember my support?
Do you remember how much you hurt me?
Do you remember when it used to be good?
When I would hug you
And joke with you?
When I screamed on that roller coaster
And you laughed with me?
When I cried to you for help,
Begged for the same affection I gave you?
Do you remember how you ignored me?
I stayed with you through thick and thin,
I stayed when it was the best
And worst
Years of our lives.
This is how I used to love you,
But I guess you couldn't do the same for me.
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A Girl in a Forgetful World
PoetryThis is a collection of all the poetry I have written. Some sadness, some happiness, and a concotion of both. Poetry is my way to vent and let my emotions flow freely. Thanks for checking it out, and I really hope you enjoy what you find! And please...
