A Girl in a Forgetful World

Take Back My Heart

You broke my heart,
You made me cry
And you picked other girls.

You told me you wanted
To talk,
To work things out
And be okay again.
What an idiot I was
For saying okay.

How could you do this?
How could your heart become so cold?
How could you think this was okay?

I'm taking back my heart
And I am never letting you have it again.
You have used me,
You have broken me,
You have bruised me,
And you have nearly killed me.
You don't deserve me.

Was I just another girl
You could get on top of?
Was I just another girl
You could kiss,
And say "I love you"
And never mean it?

I thought we had something real,
I thought we would be okay.
I thought maybe you had changed.
I see too much good in you
That isn't really there.

I'm taking back my heart,
And I am hiding it somewhere
You will never find you.
Your thorns have pierced it
Too many times
With your meaningless words
And your dark secrets.

I can't believe I ever loved you.
I loved the parts of you you showed me,
But now I know
You are much more of a monster
Than I ever imagined you would be.

When will it be enough?
When will your lust end?
When will I ever be good enough
To be with you?
I know you don't look at me the same anymore.

I'm not blonde with blue eyes,
Like she is.

I don't stay after school
And make out with you
Like she did.

I stick up for myself,
I won't let you use me anymore,
You selfish coward.

You manipulated me.
You only wanted me for your pleasure.
We weren't going to work things out.
You just wanted to make out
To satisfy what's in your pants.
How did I not see it before?

I'm taking back my heart.
You never,
Ever
Can regain my trust,
Not after this.

I thought you were better than this,
But I was so wrong.
You don't care about me.
I'm just a number to you,
One of the many girls you've used
And you have made cry.
I can't believe you.
I really can't.

It hurts so much,
But I am ripping my heart
From your hands.

You will never get me back,
You will never hurt me again.
You will never get to see my name
Light up your phone screen
With a text playing eight ball.

You will never get to look in my eyes
And confess your love for me
Because now I know
That wasn't true.
You never loved me.
You loved my body
And what it could do for you,
What it could do to you...

I'm taking back my heart
And saying goodbye.

I will ignore your texts,
Your calls.
I will block your phone number
And your Snapchat.

I'm taking back my heart
And my life
And you don't get to be a part of it
Ever
Again.