I don't know what it is,
That keeps bringing me back
To that moment in time
When we crashed
So hard.
I don't know if it's
Something wrong with my mind,
The twisted,
Dark,
Painful paths,
That somehow turned even more pitiful.
This was supposed to be fun,
But now I realize fun is a distant memory.
I can't get over it.
It hurt too much
To know you.
The deepest,
Darkest
Parts of you.
I can't leave you either.
There's something that keeps
Making me fall for you all over again.
You want to talk about it.
I don't.
I can't.
This isn't what we imagined,
This isn't what we wanted...
But something that came about
Because of things that should have been nothing.
I can't get through my week
Without thinking of you
And texting you
And wanting you.
I can't escape this.
I don't even know what it is.
I don't understand it.
I can't.
I can't go on like this anymore.
I let it all go,
All in one night.
I told you everything I needed to,
Yet I can't seem to heal.
All these broken parts,
Broken hearts,
Broken friendships...
I thought they were everyone else's fault.
How selfish and stupid of me to think.
I am the toxic one.
Aren't I?
I can't comprehend the pain
Both of us have felt.
I've tried to look at it from both sides,
I've tried to tell myself everything is okay.
But I won't believe it.
I won't heal.
I...
I just...
I can't.
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A Girl in a Forgetful World
PoetryThis is a collection of all the poetry I have written. Some sadness, some happiness, and a concotion of both. Poetry is my way to vent and let my emotions flow freely. Thanks for checking it out, and I really hope you enjoy what you find! And please...