The Life Of a Teenage Girl.

Chapter 34 (chapter 34 right???? Yes okay chapter 34. Lol I put chapter 35 by an accident)

K on with this chapter.

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"I know boy." I patted Cody's fur as he barked.

I shifted on my bed as I closed my eyes.

I wasn't expecting that at all...

My mind went back to what just happened half an hour ago.

I fiddled with my hands again. I just couldn't look into his eyes.

I could tell that they would be tears while telling this story.

"Babe what's wrong?" He asked nervously. I could tell that he was nervous cause of his voice.

"Well I need to tell you something- our of my- my past."

"Okay." He said.

He shifted nervously as his back sat up straighter.

I sighed. Well here goes nothing...

"Before I met you, I had a boyfriend. It was a while back ago when I first came here to our school.." I ignore the fast beating in my heart and continue.

"His name was Duke. We met by my friend Layla and he was a good guy, the athlete of the school with Brad. I guess that's why everybody knows me. We liked each other so he asked me out and we been on a couple of dates until he told me to be his girlfriend. I said yes of course and from there we had a prefect relationship. It was the relationship everybody wanted In there life."

I could feel some tears coming out of my eyes but I wiped them away. I didn't want to look up at him just yet.

"We dated for a year and life was perfect there. My dad was in my life too and my mom wasn't sick so it was a perfect time. But of course that ended right away. The day of our anniversary Duke took me to a beautiful picnic at night. It was so dreamlike! I loved it. Then that night-" My hand flew over my hand as I let out a soft sob.

Tears was coming out of my eyes.

"He died that night and I remembered seeing his bloody body next to the car that ran him over. I wanted to fall to my knees and end It all for me right there. I was this close to breaking down. Eventually a month later I couldn't take the pain so I started to harm myself. I still have them to prove it." I pulled up my sleeve and showed Tyler. His eyes widened as he stared at my cut wrist.

"There were too white for you to see them. I wanted to die so badly but I couldn't. I had to stay strong for my family. Around that time was really hard for me cause I went through things that I haven't been through before. It was all so fast. It was all so scary. My dad went to work somewhere else and he never visited anymore. Mom stressed over taking care of me and Carly.

I wish I could of help but I couldn't. I was young and-"

I started to cry more and more. I was pulled into his chest.

"Where were you Tyler? I needed you and you weren't there!" I yelled through the tears.

"Shhh I know. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He whispered over and over.

My tears were wetting his shirt as I finally calmed down and looked up at him.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I guess it always comes to me and it bothers me even thought I try to push the past away so many times, I just couldn't. I'm not comfortable telling this to somebody." I admitted.